Showing posts with label Pittsburgh literary scene. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Pittsburgh literary scene. Show all posts

Friday, October 1, 2021

Letter from the Editor - Fall 2021

 Hello Cafe'ers


I honestly cannot believe that it is already October.  I feel that summer flew by exceptionally quickly this year... which is a shame, I truly love summer and I am not liking the fact that it gets dark earlier now and will continue to do so... I think I may already have the winter blahs and it's not even winter yet - ha!

At any rate, I have a pretty awesome issue for you - lots of great submissions both written and artistic.

If you or anyone you know would like to submit something for our winter issue - we are now taking submissions for that issue - email me at holidaycafe.nicole@gmail.com thank you.  Check out our Facebook group page too, if you get a minute.

I am also working on a side project and I am looking for artists, illustrators, editors, authors, publishers, etc. to interview for my YouTube channel... if you are interested, email me holidaycafe.nicole@gmail.com .  It has been a lot of fun talking with the talented folks I have met so far.


Stay safe and see you for the winter edition,


Nicole



Thursday, October 1, 2020

Songwriter

Flannery O’Connor said that when people asked her why she was a writer she’d reply, “Because I’m good at it.” What I wouldn’t give to have that kind of confidence! And if anybody ever asks me why I try to write songs, I hope I’m brave enough to say, “Because I’m good at it!” Notice I had to stick the “try” in “try to write songs.” Luckily, nobody asks. 

Actually, one person asks me why I write songs, and that person is me. But it is always part of a longer questions like, “Why do you write songs instead of using the weapons of mass destruction necessary to kill the mold behind the washer and dryer that threaten to destroy your families source of clean clothes? Don’t you care if your wife and children have smelly clothes?” 

 The offer is tempting. If I go work on the mold, I don’t have to deal with the other things in the basement I’d rather not deal with. Such as my song notebook, heavy and fat because I save all of my rough drafts. Why? Because I’m good at saving things. The notebook always wants another verse. My guitar case says, “Open up, a song isn’t finished without a cool riff.” Then the mic stand says, “That melody is lame, better learn a Bob Dylan song instead.” It makes me want to head upstairs. 

If only I had an ounce of Flannery O’Connor’s confidence, I could just push through. I try to convince myself of that. Then again, I didn’t have Robert Lowell, Robert Penn Warren, Caroline Gordon, and Robert and Sally Fitzgerald telling me I was a good writer. Who wouldn’t have confidence if the top literary minds of their day praised their work? But that was after O’Connor got to the Iowa Writer’s Workshop. You don’t just end up at the Iowa Writer’s Workshop by making a wrong turn on the way to Atlanta. She knew she was good before she got there. I imagine one day she looked down at what she had written and said, “Wow. That’s legit.” Then she showed it to her friends, family, and/or teacher and they said, “Wow. That’s legit.” 

She was also of the school that you either have it or you don’t. If you don’t, God has some other plan for you. But I still entertain doubts that I’m on the wrong side of “it.” Why do I need external affirmation of my songwriting – every day? I’ve been doing this for a long time. 

Then I read this quote from St. Theresa of Avila, “Watch carefully, for everything passes quickly, even though your impatience makes doubtful what is certain, and turns a very short time into a long one.”

It reminded me of an interview I did with the local bluegrass legend Mac Martin several years ago. He told me that the best thing that ever happened to him was having a family and a day job that prevented him from touring. Bill Monroe and Flatt and Scruggs were professionals, but in order to remain “professional” they had to alter their sound to stay with the times. Martin played local gigs and did whatever he wanted. In the process, he stayed true to his original sound and long after Monroe and Flatt and Scruggs were gone, bluegrass purists flocked to him for his authentic sound. He was more famous in his 70s and 80s than ever. 

Everything passes quickly, so I better get working on those new songs, and the mold too.  

Mark Sullivan is the guitarist in The Deep Roots.

Thursday, July 2, 2020

Evan Dean Band - Interview

The Evan Dean Band puts on a fantastic live show, I have seen them perform live and on live video feeds for the past few years now.  I also have the pleasure of family being in the band (ok, so my family makes up like half the band), kinda cool right?!

They are a great group of people, and I was able to talk with Evan Dean briefly for a little interview.  Check it out, then go check them out!


1. Tell our audience about the Evan Dean Band? When did it begin? What kind of music do you play?
The Evan Dean Band began in 2015 in tis current iteration: Joe Cipollone- Keys, Vocals, Steve Dunn- Bass, Chris Belin- Drums, Natalie Belin- Percussion
We play Classic Rock, Blues, R&B, Soul, and Classic Country . We have a very eclectic playlist. It’s common for us to go from the Rolling Stones to Otis Redding to Johnny Cash to Chris Stapleton to Muddy Waters. 

2. When did you begin playing music? What instruments do you play? 
I began singing in the church choir at age 5. I’ve always been a singer. My mom said I came out singing… or was that screaming? In any case, I’ve always loved singing and when I was an awkward teenager, it was the only thing I liked about myself. I played violin and piano before guitar. But on the last day of 7th grade I broke my ankle and I decided that I would spend my summer learning the guitar. I was 13. From then on I was hooked on the instrument and I’ve never been able to put it down.

3. Who are your musical influences?
I have a very wide range of musical influences. Ask me on any day and you’ll get a different answer. But overall, I try not to write like any particular artist. I just try to get out what I hear in my head. I try to tell a good story, or paint a picture with my lyrics. Lately, I’ve been listening to a lot of Marcus King Band, Tedeschi Trucks Band, Allman Brothers, St. Paul & The Broken Bones, JJ Grey & Mofro, The Wood Brothers, T-Bone Walker, Howlin Wolf. 
Evan Dean Band, Picture taken by N. Leckenby

4. Where are your favorite places to perform? 
We love playing outdoor festivals, community days, and private parties. We’re still playing a few despite the pandemic and we’re really looking forward to the Pleasant Hills Community Day on August 8th.

5. What is my inspiration for writing music? 
Most of the time I write about my own pain. I’m trying to process it and get another perspective on it. Writing about joy is harder, but “Southwind” was one of the first songs about joy and hope that I ever wrote and really liked. Sometimes I like to tell a story that’s totally made up but expresses something I’m feeling or a truth I see; The “Nitty Gritty” is an example of that kind of song.

6. The best way to get the most up to date info on the Evan Dean Band is at our website: www.EvanDeanBand.com. On our facebook page you can find our gig events, crazy pics, fan videos, etc: www.facebook.com/evandeanband. If you just want to see videos of my solo acoustic and the band go to my YouTube page: www.youtube/evandean31.


Nicole Leckenby is the co-founder/editor of The Holiday Cafe. She works full-time at the University of Pittsburgh and she has two amazing boys at home that keep her busy, along with a whole host of other things.  Check out her website leckenby3.wixsite.com/nicoleleckenby

Elephant



Painting By Pittsburgh Artist - Mary Dunn

Mary has been an artist since the age of 11.  She paints mostly in acrylic and takes commission work.  

Additionally, Mary has a  YouTube Channel where she provides free art lessons in acrylic and art journaling.

Mary has a BS in Business Management and a Master’s degree in Public Management.  

Recently, Mary illustrated a book, Summer Vacation by Nicole Leckenby.  She is working on her next illustrated book that should be completed around October, 2020.  Mary has also illustrated another book, The Many Colors of Natalie, by Natalie Belin.  Both books can be purchased on Amazon.



Friday, June 26, 2020

Grief


a raven pecks your heart   takes wing  
returns and returns

a brick thrown through your soul’s window with 
a note attached   I’ll never let go

a corner you round at the intersection of Heartbreak 
and What You Thought You’d Overcome

a sea of rage at the course of life

a God who turned his back   or never was

the keen of what forever means

songs you can’t listen to anymore

half a sandwich molding in her fridge

friends that don’t understand

a teacup half empty on his sink deck

that private language you shared

jokes no one else can get 

a shape in a crowd that must be he

a car she’s driving

a crib sans a future

an instrument  silent   on a music stand

a home that’s become a house

a sweater limp in a closet

a world of poor and empty



Charlie Brice is a retired psychoanalyst and is the author of Flashcuts Out of Chaos (2016), Mnemosyne’s Hand (2018), and An Accident of Blood (2019), all from WordTech Editions. His poetry has been nominated for the Best of Net anthology and twice for a Pushcart Prize and has appeared in The Atlanta Review, The Main Street Rag, Chiron Review, I-70 Review, The Paterson Literary Review, and elsewhere.Charlie Brice is a retired psychoanalyst and is the author of Flashcuts Out of Chaos (2016), Mnemosyne’s Hand (2018), and An Accident of Blood (2019), all from WordTech Editions. His poetry has been nominated for the Best of Net anthology and twice for a Pushcart Prize and has appeared in The Atlanta Review, The Main Street Rag, Chiron Review, I-70 Review, The Paterson Literary Review, and elsewhere.Charlie Brice is a retired psychoanalyst and is the author of Flashcuts Out of Chaos (2016), Mnemosyne’s Hand (2018), and An Accident of Blood (2019), all from WordTech Editions. His poetry has been nominated for the Best of Net anthology and twice for a Pushcart Prize and has appeared in 

Waiting Room Again


The lady with three kids
in the corner of the room yells:
“You want your ass warm?
I’ll beat your ass in front of anyone.
Don’t think I won’t!” She
screams as much for us
as for her doomed offspring.
This fleshy prodigy producer
should have taken a Do Not Reproduce 
pledge, but no luck. “I’ll beat your ass,”
she bawls again, and I find us another 
place to sit, far away from this 
impresario of abuse.

Judy has to get another injection
for the relentless pain in her hips and back.
Her cane keeps a mordant rhythm while 
we move to our new seats only to hear
the lady in the wheelchair by the fish tank
loudly proclaim, “What matters
is that you’re saved. The water 
doesn’t mean a thing. You’re saved
what’s important!” 

They take Judy for her injection and 
I jam plastic buds into my ear canals, 
hoping that Khachaturian will save me
from whaling fanatics and frantic
ferocious Medusas. When Judy returns
we go to lunch at the Regent Square Café.
I have bacon and eggs, she French toast.
The injection doesn’t work, her pain returns,
but the food is good, and the drive back 
made marvelous by the green/yellow gleam 
of sycamores that line our route home.


Charlie Brice is a retired psychoanalyst and is the author of Flashcuts Out of Chaos (2016), Mnemosyne’s Hand (2018), and An Accident of Blood (2019), all from WordTech Editions. His poetry has been nominated for the Best of Net anthology and twice for a Pushcart Prize and has appeared in The Atlanta Review, The Main Street Rag, Chiron Review, I-70 Review, The Paterson Literary Review, and elsewhere.Charlie Brice is a retired psychoanalyst and is the author of Flashcuts Out of Chaos (2016), Mnemosyne’s Hand (2018), and An Accident of Blood (2019), all from WordTech Editions. His poetry has been nominated for the Best of Net anthology and twice for a Pushcart Prize and has appeared in The Atlanta Review, The Main Street Rag, Chiron Review, I-70 Review, The Paterson Literary Review, and elsewhere.Charlie Brice is a retired psychoanalyst and is the author of Flashcuts Out of Chaos (2016), Mnemosyne’s Hand (2018), and An Accident of Blood (2019), all from WordTech Editions. His poetry has been nominated for the Best of Net anthology and twice for a Pushcart Prize and has appeared in The Atlanta Review, The Main Street Rag, Chiron Review, I-70 Review, The Paterson Literary Review, and elsewhere.

Charlie Brice Interview

1.  Tell our viewers a little about yourself.  How did you get into writing?

For years I didn’t know whether I wanted to be a musician (I played drums in a terrific soul band) or a writer, but when my mother got me a Royal portable typewriter in 1966, I sat down and typed out five poems, or at least what I thought were poems in those days. I’d only recently began reading poetry, especially e.e. cummings (still a huge favorite). My heroes in high school were The Beatles, James Brown, and Ernest Hemingway. In college I became a philosophy major. Then my heroes were Nietzsche, Spinoza, and Bob Dylan. This was during the Viet Nam War. I became a conscientious objector and was assigned to Denver General Hospital where I became passionately interested in psychology (I was an orderly on the Psychiatric ward) and where I became passionate with a cute intern in psychiatry, Judy Alexander. The passion never let up! Judy and I have been married for 45 years! We moved from Denver to Pittsburgh where I got my Ph.D. in psychology and practiced as a psychologist and psychoanalyst for 35 years. What’s the difference between a psychiatrist and a psychologist I hear your readers asking: about $35 an hour (hardy har har). I also love to tell people that Judy drugs ‘em and I help ‘em get over it (but Judy doesn’t find that funny—also hardy har har!). Anyway, I wrote a bunch of papers in my field (I was especially interested in how the relational philosophy of Martin Buber could be applied to psychoanalysis). But around 2007, I started writing fiction. I got a few things published, but discovered that I loved writing poetry. I’ve been published now in over 150 journals, so I guess I found my niche. 

2.  Tell our viewers a little about book that was just released.

An Accident of Blood (WordTech Editions, 2019) is my third book and it was released almost a year ago. Some have seen it as a poetic memoir, but that was never my intention. True, the first section of the book deals with growing up in Cheyenne, Wyoming in the fifties and sixties, and the trials of living with alcoholic parents, but there are sections of the book that deal with political issues, Ekphrasis, nature, psychology, contemporary friendships, literary figures, philosophical issues, and even the art of poetry itself. There’s a lot of satire as well.

3.  What was the inspiration for the book?

In antediluvian days of yore, I took an English course in college. The professor, Bernie Beaver, said something I never forgot. He insisted that “anything can be a poem.” I’ve found this to be true over and over again and it’s probably why I’ve never faced any serious bout of writer’s block. Whenever I think my creative juices have dried up, I simply look around me, read a few lines out of a novel or history book—any book—even the newspaper, sit down and write. In other words, life itself inspires me. I seem to never run out of material. For example, the title poem, “Accidents of Blood,” came from reading a Facebook posting of a friend of mine who is a cowboy in Wyoming. We don’t agree on anything. He’s a right-wing evangelical Trump supporter and I’m a lefty atheist pinko. But my friend Bill described the decline and eventual death of his most beloved horse in such a way that his pain and suffering became dramatically present in my own life. The poem almost wrote itself. All that is to say that I’m constantly inspired by the world around me.



4.  Will you be out promoting the book, if so, where will you be?

I love to do readings and, up until this month, I’ve averaged a reading a month since the publication of my first book, Flashcuts Out of Chaos in 2016. In these days of COVID in person readings have disappeared. I have done a few readings on line and, if you search for me on Youtube, you’ll see me reading poems. I’m especially happy with the reading that’s entitled, “Charlie Brice: Hello Cooped-up World.” My friend, the poet Jeff Kass, wanted to have a series in which poets read their work and talk about their process that he could show to his high school creative writing classes. I loved making that video. You can find it here. I read several poems from Accidents of Blood in that video. I also recently read on Zoom for the C.C. Mellor Library here in Pittsburgh. That recording should be up soon at http://ccmellorlibrary.org/. If you search “Charlie Brice” on YouTube, you find a couple more recordings of me reading my work. Finally, if you check my Facebook page, you’ll see more about possible upcoming readings on line. https://www.facebook.com/charlie.brice


5.  Where can our viewers find your book?

The book is at Amazon and you can also get a signed copy from me. Send me an email at Charlie.brice@gmail.com and I’ll get one out to you for $21 (which includes shipping costs).

6.  Where can we find you on social media? 



Nicole Leckenby is the co-founder/editor of The Holiday Cafe. She works full-time at the University of Pittsburgh and she has two amazing boys at home that keep her busy, along with a whole host of other things.  Check out her website leckenby3.wixsite.com/nicoleleckenby

Abstract Theory - Interview



Abstract Theory

 
                                                        Photo credit: Shyan Montuoro

I promise you I will never forget April 16, 2019! Matt Calvetti hosted “The Get-Together” in Lawrenceville, which was a unique opportunity for a few local Pittsburgh artists to showcase their musical talents & artistic skills.  I was networking and selling fine art throughout the event. Whenever Abstract Theory started performing that’s when I stopped dead in my tracks! They had my full attention and nothing else mattered! They were high energy, captivating, no messing around, passionate, obviously talented, and unique! That’s when I realized there is rare opportunities for me to hear local Pittsburgh Hip Hop performers. I am thirty-five years old and I literally can count one other time! One! Which makes me ask why? What can be done to make sure Pittsburgh is giving musicians a proper future? With that being said enjoy the following interview with Abstract Theory!


1. Can you tell us about your background (where your love of music started, how did Abstract Theory begin)?

Louie: My love for music started with my father. When I was four or five, he bought me a keyboard for my bedroom. I set it right in front of the window and play it, terribly and as loud as possible, with the window open. We used to live in the projects so If some of the kids from around walked by I'd scream "Hey, listen to my music". I began playing terribly and as loud as possible. When I thought the song sounded done, I'd look, and no one would be standing there. I laugh quietly to myself when I tell that story cause now people pay to hear me play. I love it. Being so young and knowing I wanted people to hear what I had to say and express musically is a joy to look back on.

Troy: I grew up in Great Neck NY and I feel like my love of music started with my parents. My parents always played music like Led Zeppelin and The Grateful Dead and I love both of those bands, but my world changed when I discovered hip hop. I spent days on end learning rhymes, watching music videos, and interviews. I think being from NY also really influenced me since that is the birthplace of hip hop. 

As for Abstract Theory, we began after meeting through a mutual friend. We literally met freestyled together once and the rest is history.

2. Where do you think the Hip Hop scene is headed in Pittsburgh? 

Louie: I think the Hip Hop scene in Pittsburgh could/is only going to go up from here. But to be honest, it's nowhere near where it should be. That's why we've been working so hard and collaborating with as many creatives as possible to bring it into the proper lighting, so to speak. I know Troy and I speak on this often, but Hip Hop isn't a genre of music it's a culture and a way of life. It's something you live and stand by. Hip Hop is about community and building a path for future generations to lay steppingstones. As far as I see there's no clear end to Hip Hop, almost like a consistently loading video game scenery while walking through an rpg world.

Troy: It’s so hard to say. To start off with there are only about 5 emcees in the city I actually respect. Most “hip hop artists’ aren’t doing the culture justice so by default the culture doesn’t have a proper future. Most rappers are JUST rappers. They aren’t embodying hip hop. Hip hop is a lifestyle, it’s a being, it’s a vibration, it’s who you are at your core. Millvale music fest didn’t even have a hip hop/rap stage last year and hip hop statistically is the BIGGEST genre in the world. I think that speaks volumes on how the city views what we do and the culture we’re apart of. The only rap acts featured last year were the politically safe choices in the city. Hip hop only has a future if it’s nurtured properly. OGs and people like Louie and I need to teach and the young need to study. This culture is founded on peace, unity, and self-betterment. Right now, almost all of what I hear is drugs, material items, and disrespect towards our women.

3. Who are your most influential emcees?


Louie: There's too many for so many reasons, especially the earlier emcees because everyone has their own style, so to speak. Back in the day if you were caught jockin' someone’s style, you'd get the beat down, no if ands or buts about it. Nowadays, everyone sounds the same, everyone has the same autotune, the same look, the same flow, very few are out here doing something creative and different. But out of a list of 10, I'd have to say
1) MF Doom 2) DAS EFX 3) Mac Miller 4) Joey Bada$$ 5) Big L 6) Eminem 7) Isaiah Rashad 8) Mos Def 9) Biggie Smalls 10) Digable Planets

Troy: Slug of Atmosphere (the king, the goat, Rhymesayers is the best label in hip hop PERIOD), Black Thought, Common, Kendrick Lamar, and DMX


4. What do you want your audience to get out of your lyrics?

Louie: I want them to be able to connect, relate, and find solace somehow some way. Or be able to find a new friend just because their fans of us and they start their friendship through that.

Troy: I want them to understand that it is up to them to take charge of their own life. Society will not hold your hand and there are evil forces that wish to suppress us. Take matters into your own hands. Work hard, read, travel, grow, laugh, meditate, eat healthy, and most of all experience as much as possible.
Photo credit: Pat Bruener


5. I know that you recently did a European Tour!!! Can you describe what that opportunity was like?

Louie: The tour in the Netherlands was amazing. But it left me feeling almost empty inside because I knew I didn't reach my final goal or full potential yet. 

Troy: The tour was incredible. We made so many fans and had so many genuine interactions. We played for a minimum of 500 people a night at sold out shows. When you’re preceding a legend, it can be hard to captivate a seasoned audience, but we did and that felt amazing. We even got the cosign from KRS One and his whole team which was a dream come true. To me that was the ultimate sign that we’re on the right path and will be soon be legends in this culture. 

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6. Tell us some of your favorite experiences performing live?

Louie: One of my favorites is the first time I performed live with Troy. We actually performed for a few hundred students at PSU. We got to perform our first song we wrote together and a few others. Because that moment was so enjoyable and the crowd payed attention, if I get nervous, I usually think back to that performance. Another is probably one huge tie between the shows in the Netherlands. The people there are extremely humble with an alacrity to learn about you and from you. It makes me feel like I am beginning to reach others and connect with the world. 

Troy: Waaaaaaaay back in the day, eons ago, year 1 of us performing in the city. We played Art All Night, and, in the crowd, there were like 12 middle-high school kids vibing. I jumped in the crowd during one song to rock with them. Louie and I took a photo with them afterwards. There was one show on the KRS One tour where I freestyled with KRS on stage and he gave me props. Under the Bridge Festival which is a grassroots festival I threw with Louie that garnered over 500 people. We headlined since we put it on and just seeing how many people came out to support was incredible. Lastly literally anytime the crowd sings along with us I lose my shit.


7. Any information on any upcoming music from Abstract Theory? Where can our readers find out more information about you guys? (social media)?

Louie: We've been working on a ton of music. We have an album for you and quite a few singles between the two of us that we can't wait to release. We have also been stepping up our game on the merchandise side of things. From lunchboxes to yoga pants we got some amazing designs for the world. We've also been closely working with some of our favorite creatives in Pittsburgh to collaborate on merchandise. Every month or so we will be collaborating with another creative to put out some dope exclusive merchandise in our Digital Pop Up Shop, all of which are only available for FOUR hours each drop. Personally, I'm a fan of having something not many people have, so we wanted to create that idea around our merchandise. You can find the digital pop up shop on our website abstracttheory.net. If the store isn't open, you can find info on when it opens again.

Troy: New project is in the works now, tons of solo work from each of us, when COVID is over the greatest events Pittsburgh ever done seen (laughing maniacally). You can find all of our updates on Instagram @abstracttheoryofficial and you can check out our music on all streaming services by searching Abstract Theory. 


Natalie is the author of The Many Colors of Natalie, a book of poetry.  She holds an associates degree in Specialized Technology Le Cordon Bleu Pastry Arts and in her spare time is an artist and percussionist.

The Golden Coffee Beans


In a certain asphalt jungle lived two peasants, blood sisters; one was poor and one was rich. The rich one went to live in the inner city, built an enchanted manor, and runs a fortune 500. But the poor one, she can barely rub two nickels together. She lives in a little run-down shack in a ramshackle part of the city. Her children would scream and weep because no food could be found in their home. One day she said to her children: “I will go into the city and ask my sister for help.” She came upon the rich sister’s business. The building was as large as a castle with ruby windows, and gold trim along the outside. As she entered this magnificent building everything was covered in marble. When she turned to her left, she saw a giant mirror and a message appeared in flame lettering “go up the marble steps, I am on the third floor, and my office is the third door to your left.” When the poor sister came to the rich sister’s door, the rich sister was dressed in couture “Ah, my sister, help me! My children are hungry and we have not had food for days or clean running water to bathe in or drink.” “Help me around the office, then I will see how I can service you.” The poor sister set off to work.  She cleaned the toilets, made copies, scheduled appointments, and made coffee.” On the seventh day, the rich sister gave her three golden coffee beans and said: “Thank you for your help!” The poor sister ran out of the building and fell to her knees and wept. A rainbow falcon swooped down and grabbed her and took her back to her little run-down shack. When they arrived at her home the falcon gently placed her on the ground and said: “Master, listen to me. Pluck one of my bright red feathers and wave it over the three golden coffee beans. I promise you will weep no more.” The peasant answered: “I have no strength left.” The Falcon replied, “What do you need strength for? I see that you have tweezers, but what of use is it? Take the tweezers and pluck a bright red feather.”

The peasant used the tweezers to pluck a bright red feather from the rainbow falcon. The falcon then flew away. 

The poor sister threw one of the golden beans on her one-legged table and waved the bright red feather over the bean wishing for a feast that her children could eat. All of a sudden, a feast appeared! There was enough food to feed the city! They ate and drank until they could no more. She did not want the leftovers to go to waste so she preserved them as best as she could. Everyone was merry, loud, and sang songs. Once the celebration was over, everyone went to bed.

The next morning came when the rooster crowed, and everyone awoke she thought long and hard for her next wish. The poor sister threw the second golden bean on her one-legged table and waved the bright red feather over the bean wishing to have a business right next to her rich sister, so she too could wear couture and be successful. A horse with a rainbow mane waited for her outside her little run-down shack. She jumped on the horse and they took off for the city at a rapid speed. She came upon her new business. Almost identical to her rich sisters. The building was large as a castle with diamonds for windows, and gold trim along the outside. The horse with the rainbow mane turned and said: “Master, listen to me. Go through the diamond-encrusted door, then make your way up the marble steps. Go to the third floor, your office is the third door to the left.” She reached her office and fell to her knees and wept. Three little mice all dressed in couture came running to her carrying a giant book and said: “Master, listen to me. Read this red leather-bound book. I promise you will weep no more.” The mice then scurried off. She opened the book and started to read. It was an instruction manual on how to build a successful fortune 500. When she was done reading, she built a plan on how to operate her own business. She became twice as rich as her sister. 

After some time, it was more of a long time rather than a short time she kept monitoring the funds of the business to make sure her empire was in the black rather than the red. This calls for a festivity! She ran over to her sister’s office and invited her for a celebratory feast! The rich sister said to her “I accept the invite, but where did you get the money to build such an empire? Just a few months ago you were begging me for work.” “Ah, sister it was the golden coffee beans you gave me.” 

The rich sister began to worry as she noticed her funds after some time, it was more of a short time rather than a long time were drastically plummeting into the red rather than the black. She had no idea that her sister was taking away from her business and it was due to her reason. She refused to live a restricted lifestyle. The next day the rich sister drove her Porsche to the celebratory feast. There was plenty to eat and drink! The rich woman was jealous, she thought to herself: “If I find that last golden coffee bean then I can destroy my sister fully.”  The dinner has ended, as the guests began to rise from the table, and thanked the hostess. The guests were singing a drunken song as they left the lavish restaurant. The rich sister offered to take the poor sister home. As they arrived at the little run-down shack the poor sister offered the rich sister to come in. When the poor sister had her back turned the rich sister noticed a shiny glow coming from the coat pocket that was hanging near the door they entered. The rich sister grabbed the last golden coffee bean, threw it on the one-legged table, and waved her hands and said: “I wish you to be rich no more.” Both sisters were startled. The rich sister stormed off due to frustration. The poor sister grabbed the golden coffee bean and placed it under her pillow, and went to bed. 

The next morning came and the rooster crowed, and everyone awoke. She thought long and hard for her next wish. The poor sister threw the third golden bean on her one-legged table and waved the bright red feather over the bean wishing to have a handsome prince to love and marry. A few seconds later there was a loud knock at the door. The girls jumped and shrieked and they all rushed to the door. A handsome prince awaited with a beautiful bouquet of flowers, and beautiful dresses for all the girls. The prince got down on one knee and asked for the poor sister’s hand in marriage. She wept and screamed “YES!” As the prince was ready to sweep his new fiancé off her feet, she said wait “please, take me to the city. I have to make things right with my sister.” The handsome prince obliged, and the girls followed behind. As they approached her sister's business it no longer looked shiny and new. As she entered the building the marble looked dull and dirty. She ran up the marble steps to the third floor and barged into the third door that was to her left. There, her sister laid disheveled and distraught. The poor sister said to the rich sister: “Ah, my sister, here is an invitation to my wedding, here are the keys to my business that I no longer need, and here is the bright red feather that I plucked from the rainbow falcon that would have made your wish come true.” She turned and walked away. 

The prince then whisks his future princess away. After some time, it was more of a short time rather than a long time the wedding ceremony had taken place. All the guests wore lavish clothes, the women wore lavish gowns with fur coats, and diamonds are pearls draped the fine couture. The men wore expensive tuxedos and their shoes glistened. Savory dishes were served along with several meads and wines. 

The rich sister ran into the poor sister, both sang a celebratory song, they both lived happily ever after.

Natalie is the author of The Many Colors of Natalie, a book of poetry.  She holds an associates degree in Specialized Technology Le Cornon Bleu Pastry Arts and in her spare time is an artist and percussionist.

Friday, September 28, 2018

Rogue BBQ - Fall 2018 Interview

A few months back, there was a BIG event at my son's school... to help with the redistricting of the
elementary schools... We had everything from a dunk tank to giant inflatables to food trucks... because how else are you going to provide food for hundreds of people?!

I put a call for food trucks out on my Facebook page and low and behold someone replied... someone I have known since preschool (that would be 35 plus years)... We worked out some details and he showed up with his truck that day...

The people loved the food... it was a good day all around.

I personally love the pulled pork tacos (they are to die for!!)... I have had the opportunity to get them a few more times since then... thank goodness!  I even got a bit of catering from Rogue BBQ for my son and husband's birthday dinner.

I got to ask Rogue BBQ some questions... check out their responses - then go find them... you won't be disappointed... I Promise!

1. How did you get into the food truck business? 

We were invited to participate at two local multi day events, Renzi Rib fest and South Park BMX state and national races. We began our operation with tow behind smokers, and 10x10 pop up canopies. Rogue was the brain child of these two events, as the brand grew so did the need for a more mobile setup.

2. What’s the biggest misconception people might have about food trucks? 

Not all food trucks are created equal. Folks get excited because trucks are trendy and popular, but there is a difference between the chef driven menus and the rest. Pittsburgh has some really great food truck chefs out there, ours included that create chef developed concepts in a mobile unit. There is a lack of recognition for the hard work that is put in, which sometimes more often than not is very comparable to running a brick and mortar. However, the recognition for the brick and mortar chefs are more prevalent.

3. How did you pick the menu for the food truck? 

We kept our staples like the smoked wings, and smoked ribs but we wanted to stay true to the mischievous yet playful definition of Rogue. Each item had to fulfill the expectations of great BBQ while being easily prepared on the road. After several trial runs which included some winners (brisket nachos, pulled pork tacos) and some not to be mentioned losers, are menu was created. Rogue composes the menus based upon events, everything from smoked turkey legs, to strawberry pretzel salad has seen their turn on the menu.

 4. How are Rogue and Westwood connected (I know Rogue operates out of Westwood)? 

Westwood is the sister catering company to Rogue. It is where we launched our first business, and is the home to both companies now.

5. What has been the most amusing thing that has happened at a food truck event? 

It is so hard to nail down one specific event because we have a lot of fun while we are on the road. We love the furry friends, and you will usually catch us feeding them some great brisket, sometimes you may hear our team using swashbuckling pirate or macho man randy savage accents, other times they may be out dancing with the guests near the stage.

6. What’s the future for Rogue? Will you be selling the sauces/rubs? T-shirts? Swag –etc.?

 You can purchase our t shirts and hoodies at Westwood, or contact us at roguebbqpgh@gmail.com. Currently we are working to package the dry rubs and dusts, and should be launching those in Spring 2019. Rogue is developing the plans to open a brick and mortar as well, but no date has yet been set.

7. Tell the readers how they can get a hold of you if they want you at their events and/or catered food – and where you will be ‘parked’ soon. 

You can find all of this information on our website at roguebbqpgh.com or by liking us on facebook/twitter @roguebbqpgh

Wednesday, September 26, 2018

Midas Protocol Series

(Chapter ONE)
# # Caroline's Choice # #
(PROOF COPY -- Not for distribution.)

Caroline's Choice
Monday, January 8, 1990 - Point Park University

Caroline Friday was not sure what she was getting into when she enrolled in Professor Bill Murdock’s Investigative Reporting class. After all, she heard from other students he was an asshole. How bad could he be though? He certainly couldn’t be worse than Pete Gardner at Burger Empire?
In itself, being an asshole was not a bad thing. She wouldn’t hold that against Professor Murdock (or anyone for that matter) because people called her that word a lot too. What worried her more was that the investigative reporting class sounded like a lot of work and Caroline had too many things going on in her life now.

After she quit her job at Burger Empire, she gave in to her father’s wishes and decided to attend Pointless Park College. She entertained, if not resigned herself to, the idea of a business degree, and a predictable safe career in the family restaurant business. Jubilant, her father promptly added her back to the rotation at the restaurant, where she now pulled three full shifts a week (and the hair out of head). Though she detested her role as a hostess, she had to admit that the money helped. Still, twenty four hours of work plus five classes? The last thing she needed was a super busy, demanding course, and she was skeptical if this class would be easy. She heard this professor could be demanding. Compounding matters, her father would certainly not approve of this course. If it was not a business course, it was a waste of money in his opinion.

Nevertheless, investigative reporting piqued her interest and she wanted to take at least one class that was outside her wheelhouse. She felt her Dad at least owed her that. Although she thought she had made a wise decision by caving in to her father’s wishes to go to college, what choice did she really have? After quitting Burger Empire her options were limited. She had no car. No job. She couldn’t do anything but agree to her father’s wishes. She suspected her father knew that but acted like she was a making a good choice all on her own accord. Her father meant well although he was patronizing to no end. Therefore, if she took this course, it would be all Caroline’s choice--and that made her feel good.

Still, she had to be careful. As interested as she was in the investigative reporting course, the last thing she needed was another ball-breaking professor who piled the work on--let alone a professor who espoused an egocentric theory of the universe where his or her great mind illumined all with its intellectual brilliance. They all felt like they should be up the hill at Carnegie Mellon University. Moreover, since she was taking the class as an elective she did not want to break a sweat when there were other classes that appeared much easier. There was the art appreciation class she had considered. Word had it that it was a walk in the park, literally.

So here she was, unusually early: the only one sitting in the makeshift computer lab at the head of a series of a uneven conference-style table arrangements. She shuffled through a thick syllabus and a chock full of Point Park University registration papers.

Caroline was dressed in bright red, over-sized flannel shirt. Underneath this getup, she sported a black-ribbed tank. Her neck was hung with two silver chains, one of which featured a amulet of Gothic design. Her purple-streaked, dark long hair was still wet from her morning shower and most of it was still tucked up and under a gray cotton beanie. She wore her favorite black denim jeans today. Her army green parka was slung over the back of her chair. Wrapped around her hips, a dark gray hoodie brought her layered look together. As she completed the papers, she nibbled on the frames of her wayfarer black sunglasses (a Christmas gift from her prospering, humble-brag brother Sam). Her lips were rouged in a less attention getting color of pink. Not one to spend a lot of time outside, no matter what time of the year, Carline’s smooth and drawn out cheeks were pale as was her overall complexion.

She continued to fuss with the papers. The bureaucratic forms were redundant to the point that made her want to pull the hair out of her head. She sighed, tapped her dark red nails against the hard Formica table top, and settled down to the task of completing the forms.

Gradually, other students filtered into the room. About five minutes past the hour, and the room now a chatterbox, Point Park professor Bill Murdock entered the classroom. He shut the door behind him with a resounding thunk. The room chatter came to a loud silence.

This man was not what she expected: Murdock was a stout five-foot-eleven, give or take. He was fair-skinned like Caroline, with a circumference of dirty blond hair that curved around his balding, wrinkled dome. Rather built in the shoulders, Murdock would be athletic looking were it not for the enormous beer gut.

“Welcome to Investigative Reporting, Two-oh-Two, eh, Four-oh-four, for the grad students,” Professor Murdock said. The groggy professor coughed, then snorted, which had the effect of retracting a yellow booger back into his right nostril, which she had not noticed when it was hanging.
Caroline found his low voice surprising. It did not seem to match the man’s face. His words carried deep, raspy, somewhat guttural and he was booming. Caroline moved her chair back. However, he projected like a sub-woofer: wherever you sat, you felt his voice full on. He was simply a loud guy.
“My name is Bill Murdock,” he shouted, passing out poorly copied and sloppily stapled papers. “This class will be unlike any you have ever taken. I promise you that. What we are all about here is proving the innocence of those already proven guilty. There are two million people incarcerated in the U.S. prison system... I have for the past twenty years covered the crime and punishment beat for the Post-Gazette,” he continued, while still passing around papers.

“I have seen government misconduct first hand and what it can do to wreck lives.... I believe about five-percent of everyone incarcerated in our prison system is innocent.... Out of two million people, you do the math. That means one thing: we have a lot of fucking work to do.”

What did he just say? Caroline’s attention perked up when she heard him drop the F-bomb. This was something that would never happen in some of the business classes, she was sure of it. Those business professors were buttoned-down and conservative. Murdock dressed like he didn’t care and apparently spoke like it too. She immediately liked that about the man whom--according to the bio she had in front of her--was a celebrated Pittsburgh Post-Gazette staff writer.

She looked around the room. Most of the students seemed to be surprised at the man’s profane language and his less than professorial appearance.

“I am sorry class,” Murdock said. “You will have to forgive but I have an incurable case of irritable vowel syndrome.”

A general cloud of chuckles and smirks rose to the top of the class along with several confused looks.

“Anybody know what that means?” He asked.

There was silence. Caroline was loving this guy now. He was not a typical professor. Nobody spoke up. A lot of faces turned to each other.

“It means if you are offended by foul language you may as well get the fuck out of my class now,” He said. “Oops, another flare up.”

The class erupted in laughter. Caroline smiled. She was going to like Professor Murdock. He was her kind of guy and she loved his lack of pomp and circumstance. Murdock was a cool dude. She could see that working on his projects would be incredibly interesting.

Caroline finished reading his bio. Though he dressed like one, he was no slouch when it came to Journalism credentials. Professor Murdock, according to his food stained curriculum vitae, was once nominated for the Pulitzer Prize for a muckraking series on the Federal Witness Relocation Program. She was immediately mesmerized by the man and the course objectives.

Murdock ranted about the wrongfully convicted, “The goal of The Innocence Institute is to overturn wrongful convictions! Now make up your mind if you can devote yourself to this class. It will be demanding. We will visit crime sites. You will go to prisons and interview hard core inmates, convicted murderers, rapists. You will interview their family members, reexamine evidence. You will go to their trials. You will have an experience unlike any other one you will have in college.

Moreover, you will make a difference and I mean that...” Murdock paused. “Now, we have a lot of work to do.... I want to dive in right away.... I am going to pass around cases. Some of these cases, which are already being worked on by students, have been mailed to us by inmates.... Now keep in mind that everyone in these folders have been proven guilty. Many of them are not innocent, so don’t go crazy about what some of these people were put away for. Some of it is grisly and disturbing.”
A large stack of legal brown folders plummeted onto the four or five conference tables and kept growing. Inevitably, the piles became unstable and toppled. Folders spilled everywhere. Students dealt the splayed folders across the table like playing cards. It was all the luck of the draw at this point. Caroline was filled with excitement at the down and dirty folders that came her way. What horrors might they contain? What reminders would they serve that her life was not that bad?
Each time Murdock left the classroom to go to his office, he astoundingly returned with more folders and reams of paper. The details of the cases were, as he promised: grisly and disturbing.

There was the accountant who killed his wife with a gun he purchased at K-Mart and then turned it on his infant children. There was a teenager who walloped his shop teacher over the head with a ball peen hammer at Perrysville High School--that one hit a little close to home as Perrysville was near West View. How about the woman who drowned all her children--she was particularly loathsome to consider. Then there was the crack addict who didn’t remember stabbing a prostitute, chopping her up and stuffing her into a fifty-five gallon drum in his backyard. That one turned heads and tightened knotted stomachs.

Before long, an undulating sea of manila folders, containing poorly typed and misspelled letters from inmates, crime photos, depositions, witness interviews, crime scene diagrams, court transcriptions and a sea of other documents--covered the tables. Students passed the cases from hand to hand and it all reminded Caroline of dam workers hoping to stop a flood by passing along sandbag after sandbag--only in this case the sandbags were folders filled with unimaginable crimes and horrors.
As the students examined the cases, Murdock explained some of the more promising ones--at least in terms of their potential innocence. His current team was on the verge of getting the Solomon Milliron case reopened, he explained.

Milliron was a biker doing life for a double murder stemming from a drug deal that went bad. A government informant, and fellow biker who rode with the Pythons out of Cleveland, gave false testimony in eye-witnessing Milliron at the scene of the murder. Milliron rode with the Punishers out of Pittsburgh. Ostensibly, the gangs were at odds with each other. However, it turned out Milliron could not have been at the place where and when the murder went down because when it happened he was in an Alabama drunk tank--the result of a pistol whipping he delivered to a cocktail server that had shut him off. It was clear that that informant had lied.

As reprehensible as the Milliron was, he simply could not be at both places at the same time. Despite these facts, he was awaiting his turn at the executioner’s hand.

Caroline raised her hand. She was the first in the entire class to ask a question. The class became quiet. Murdock seemed eager to hear what she had to say.

“So how do you feel about the death penalty Professor Murdock?” Caroline said with a natural confidence. She didn’t even look up from the case file that she was reading when she had asked the question. Murdock pondered the question and studied Caroline with a slight smile evident on his face.

“Why do you ask?” Murdock said.

“This guy I am reading about right now... Bastard was convicted of hiring someone to kill his ex-girlfriend. Her poor kid died because he was standing with his mom. He was only eight. Eight! Mother fucker!” She paused. The class became quiet. “Honestly, I think this prick deserves to die--if he did it. I don’t see how a burglar would have accidentally wandered into her house at that time... ” She grew louder. “For Christ’s sake, there is a picture of the kid here.”

Caroline stood up abruptly and turned to the class waving a black and white photo of a young boy that had been shot and left on the kitchen floor of his house. Caroline huffed and sat back down with a look of gloom passing across her face. She slammed the photo on the table. Murdock and the class all focused on Caroline. Caroline was shaking her head and now slide back in her seat.
Only the snapping of a student’s bubble gum and the trance inducing ballast hum of the fluorescent lights, broke the awkward silence. The folders had stopped their rotation. Caroline pounded the table. Anger flashed across her face. “What do you guys think? That kid never had a chance. I would throw the fucking switch myself on whoever did that to him.”

No one said a word.

Caroline gazed around the classroom, becoming distinctly aware that someone passed gas. Murdock’s nostrils flared, but if he was the culprit, he gave no indication other than a brief pause and wry wrinkle at the corner of his pinkish, narrow lips. Well, this class is going to be laid back.

Murdock, in blue jeans, put a dirty white Reebok up on the table. Ah, the source of the offending smell was revealed. Mashed into the shoe’s tread was dog poop, a cigarette butt, and grass clippings.
Murdock scratched his blond goatee. Caroline guessed the chin hair was the magical switch that kick-started the man’s brilliant brain. Dog poop on his shoe and all, Prof Murdock moved right along.
“There was this guy Red Dog who got into the Federal Witness Relocation program. New life. New identity... New Red Dog. Well, Red Dog befriended an elderly lady, Theresa Clemenceau. Everything was fine... In fact, he used to come over and baby sit Theresa’s granddaughter on occasion. Then one day, Red Dog went back to his old ways. The police found Mrs. Clemenceau with her head cut off, her ten-year-old granddaughter raped and left for dead in the basement. Red Dog wasn’t done yet. Nope. He went on a seven-state killing rampage that ended when the State of Alabama put enough juice through this sonuvabitch that could have powered the lights at Three Rivers Stadium.”
Murdock looked at her squarely, nodding, pausing for dramatic effect. Then, he turned to the rest of the class. “The world was safer the day they executed Red Dog.” Murdock said loudly. “So, Miss Friday, to answer you question, I would have to say that when it comes to the death penalty, I am on a case-by-case basis.” He paused, lingering on her for a moment with a look of pride. “Great question--now when did I step in dog shit?”

The class laughed. Caroline held back a smile, feeling uneasy. For the first time she realized that all the eyes in the class had turned toward her. Wow. When she launched her rant, she had been totally oblivious to anyone around her. Now she felt the presence of the entire class staring at her.
Murdock looked around the classroom, while wiping the bottom of his shoe tread off the sharp edge of a chair back. “You know in over twenty years not one person asked me that question--do you believe in the death penalty?”

He laughed, shook his head, and gazed proudly at Caroline. “They assumed they knew the answer,” Murdock said, now pacing the room. He stared up, scratching his goatee once again. “Hell, even I assumed I knew my own answer, but sometimes an answer can be surprising, or not entirely what you suspect. There is never an answer to an unasked question. Sometimes the toughest questions we need to ask are the ones we should ask to ourselves.”

Caroline listened through the remainder of the three-hour class as Professor Murdock explained all tricks of the trade and how prosecutors routinely cut deals with crack addicts, hookers or lunatics simply to get testimony that might put somebody away for good. He described a fraud called “Jumping on the Bus” where convicts memorized details of privileged cases, leaked no doubt by privileged eyes, and gave prosecutors affirmations of unproven facts in exchange for leniency or reduced sentences. Caroline found it riveting and fascinating. It astounded her that the legal system worked in such a way.

Murdock left the room and the class to decide what cases they wanted to investigate for the semester. There were about five tables of students in all. Each table had about four or five students and would constitute an investigative team. The task at hand was for each to team to pick a case to investigate. In that regards, the members of each team were the result of pure luck. She looked at the students at her table.

Brad Church was tall, lanky, and nerdy. He appeared very cerebral in nature, but seemed tired and disinterested in picking a case. She noted he took the opportunity to get a head start on his accounting homework instead of focusing on the cases in front of them. Caroline was reasonably sure Brad was also in her Accounting 101 class.

Ryan Billings sat next to him. He was a cute and attractive jock type. Right now he was preoccupied making inappropriate jokes about the cases he read. He donned a Point Park baseball hoodie, jeans and a Pittsburgh Pirates ball cap turned backwards. It seemed his best qualities would be served up in being invited to a fun frat party. She turned to the other student, Carly Gucci.

Carly was cut from the same stock that made Caroline and she immediately felt a liking for her. She was slender, wore really tight dark jeans, and a teeshirt that revealed a slim midriff featuring a belly button piercing and several ornamental floral tattoos. Her hair was cut short like a boys and had red streaks in it. She chewed gum loudly and when Caroline made eye contact, she was already smiling back. This would be a friend for sure.

Carly slid her chair closer to Caroline and together they started taking notes on the cases. Meanwhile, the boys were goofing around laughing at stuff they were looking at. Mostly it was Ryan making the obscene jokes. Brad seemed like the typical wet blanket nerd who laughed when required by a much cooler friend. Ryan looked at her a couple times attempting to make eye contact with her, but Caroline only would return a skeptical, if not dismissive look. He was cute, but she wasn’t easy.
After fifteen minutes or so, Caroline’s serious demeanor managed to finally get the boys attention and they all started rummaging through the folders. Caroline and Carly paid the most attention while the boys laughed at several nude photos of corpses. Ryan seemed to enjoy watching Carly take charge, and assume her role as a natural leader. Carly took meticulous notes. Finally, Brad put his accounting homework away and turned his focus to the task of helping out.

It was time to pick a case.

Although Murdock said any case across the nation was open to their Innocence Institute project, he preferred local ones. Local cases would be convenient in terms of resources and they helped politically too. It never hurt, Murdoch explained, when their efforts went noticed by the Point Park University board and the City of Pittsburgh. Towards those ends, he planned to pen a couple stories about their efforts and progress along the way. The school loved that kind of publicity and it helped when it came to funding and budget allocations, he explained.

Of all the cases that passed across her place at the table, one stood out in particular to Caroline:

Doverspike and Gibb, Death Row, 1983

There was something unusually familiar about those names. She had heard those names sometime before, long ago. She opened the folder and immediately remembered why the names sounded so familiar: both men were convicted of the murder of Lawrence and Eva Goodman-Bingham. It was a local case. She knew of the Bingham family.

Her Dad had catered a private party at the Bingham’s house a few years before he and his wife were murdered. Caroline was too young to care, but when this murder happened, it was big news in Pittsburgh. She remembered that was all her parents would talk about for one summer. They were such nice people, her Mom would say. Great tipper, her Dad had lamented. Of course, Caroline was thirteen when it happened.

"Let's do the Bingham murder,” Caroline said, to the students at her table. She slapped it down on top of the pile of folders. Once again that natural surge of enthusiasm and gusto percolated to the top of her personality. The other students at her table seemed to not really care too much about the case they selected. It seemed like Caroline had saved them work to do so they all agreed.

“Why that one?” Carly asked.

“I don’t know.” Caroline smiled, brushing a lock of hair behind her ear. “It sounds like a fun case I guess."

Carly laughed at her. “Fun? Okay, let’s have some fun then. I like a fun time.”

Caroline continued rummaging through grisly murder black-and-whites of burnt bodies. What a tragedy. The Binghams had it all and it was taken away from them by two locals--Rusty Gibb and Mark Doverspike. Of course, they both claimed they had nothing to do with the killings.

She looked at pictures of Gibb and Doverspike. Both looked like they could be any average working class, middle-aged males loafing in West View. Although, Rusty had more of nice guy appearance whereas Mark had mean look in his eyes. According to prosecutors, the men killed the Binghams because of a drug deal gone bad. However, there was no physical evidence connecting them to the crime. No clothing fibers, blood stains or other tangible evidence. Moreover, they claimed they both didn’t even know Veronica Westfall, the woman that claimed she knew about their plans ahead of time and was there when they did it. So this millionaire couldn’t pay for his weed? In a rather sad twist of fate, it looked like half their work was done. Mark was shivved in prison and died several years after sentencing.  Rusty was on Pennsylvania’s Death Row waiting out his turn at Graterford State Prison in Graterford, Pennsylvania. He wrote letters often, proclaiming his innocence.

Murdock, who had been silently observing Caroline from the front of the room, smiled like he had discovered a long lost daughter. While most of the class seemed befuddled by her carefree and nonchalant perusing of the murder photos, Bill Murdock had a knowing look in his eye. Students like Caroline Friday didn’t come along often, not even once every ten years, but he knew when a gem had been uncovered.

Caroline studied the contents of the manila folder, her mind furiously working on the details, already taking notes, underlining text and dissecting testimony, breaking down the events of the murder in her mind. Little did she know it would be some time before she would ever close that manila folder again.

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Matt De Reno is a fiction writer living in Pittsburgh. He also works as a product manager for an aerospace and automotive publications company. When not writing fiction, you might find him chasing his disobedient dog down the street. 
You can learn more about Matt and the Midas Protocol at scratchwriting.com

Monday, September 24, 2018

Framed Memory

“when did we become friends?”
-Wanda Coleman

Polkadots and feathers fill my head
as I pack my photographs in dusty boxes,
hauling them into the attic.

I listen as the floorboards speak.
I hear their whispers to one another,
their breath blowing onto my feet.
My skin chills with each step,
their cold words tattooed onto my skin.

I place the box onto a pile of magazines,
Vanity Fair, Cosmo, Vogue.
Dust floats like feathers,
tinted sunlight breaking through the window.

I pull a photograph out of the box
and stare as dust settles on the frame.
Two girls jump on a bed, pillows raised high.
Their feet curled up and their hair standing tall.
They’re floating, like the feathers, like the dust.
Time stands still, paused, frozen.

I place the photograph back in the box
and fold the tabs on the top.
As I walk away, I listen to the boards continue
their whispering, talking behind my back
like two little girls gossiping
at a sleepover.


Cassandra Skweres is a junior at Pittsburgh CAPA 6-12 located in Downtown Pittsburgh. She has been attending CAPA since 6th grade and will be continuing to study literary until she graduates. Cassandra enjoys to write, dance, sing, and do photography. 

But am I Beautiful on the Inside?



Rebekah Skweres - Pittsburgh Capa for Visual Arts student.  I was drawing it when I felt that I was making art that was decent and aesthetically pleasing, but I was transitioning to a new school and felt I was bothering too many people because I didn’t know what I was doing. I felt like I was burdening others in asking too much. I was also in the process of improving drawing the side profile from memory. This piece is titled as the quote inside it, “But am I beautiful on the inside?”

Thursday, September 20, 2018

Maria - Fall 2018


Maria Anderson is a stay at home mom. She has olive skin, long brown hair, and a bubbly personality. Women envy her for her slender figure; she always looks refreshed, and well kept. Ralph Anderson, Maria’s husband, is the owner of Ralph’s Auto Body Shop. The community raves about his exceptional work and fair pricing.  Ralph is quite handsome; ladies practically throw themselves at him. Maria surprisingly laughs. She knows Ralph would never leave her. Their relationship is strong, healthy, and far from boring.
They have three adorable boys under the age of ten. Noah is the oldest. He is eight years old and loves to skateboard. Jacob is the middle child and is six years old and loves to read comic books. Ethan is the youngest child. He just turned three last week. Ethan looks up to his older brothers immensely. Noah and Jacob really enjoy hanging out with Ethan, most of the time. Ethan gets so excited whenever his older brothers suggest making obstacle courses for his gazillion matchbox cars.
The Anderson family lives in a home that captures the early 1900 charm in Long Beach, California. Ralph works countless hours to be able to afford the mortgage. Ralph would do anything to ensure the happiness and safety of his family. Maria knows how hard her husband works. That’s why she always makes sure the house is spotless, the kids are decently behaved, and Ralph always has a delicious meal waiting for him at dinnertime. Ralph is always amazed how clean the house is when he gets home, with his three rambunctious boys you would think that was far from possible. He always raves to his customers about Maria’s cooking.
On Tuesday and Thursday evenings Sophia, a neighbor to the Andersons, babysits the boys so Maria can have some me time.  Maria really enjoys taking the hour-long yoga class on the beach, it’s just enough time for her to refresh. Plus, it’s only a three-minute drive from their house. Maria decided to take a few extra minutes after class to plop herself in the sand and reflect on how lucky she is. Maria has a family that is happy and healthy and would not trade her life for anyone else’s.
As the sun starts to set, Maria decides to brush the sand off of herself and heads towards her vintage navy-blue VW bug. Maria was going North on Pacific Avenue, not having a care in the world. The windows were down and the wind was blowing thru her long beautiful hair. She was at a red light waiting to make a left onto W 7th Street. Maria looks in her mirror and notices a green pickup truck slightly swerving and not slowing down. Maria has nowhere to go. She was stuck. All she could do was brace for impact and pray. The sounds of smashing metal, screeching tires, and car horns were filling the air with noise pollution. Two other cars were in front of Maria and it created a domino effect. First her head bounces forcefully off the steering wheel. Immediately she felt a warm liquid ooze from her forehead and start to trickle down her face. Maria becomes lightheaded. It was getting harder for her to breath because of the broken ribs that punctured her lungs.
The once polished antique VW beetle now looks like a beat-up accordion with steam spewing out of the mangled hood of the car. Emergency vehicle sirens were blasting thru the streets. Sophia and the boys saw the emergency vehicles whip past the house. Sophia’s stomach dropped. She knew those sirens were for Mrs. Anderson. Maria was never fifteen minutes late; maybe a couple minutes late here and there, but never fifteen.
Ralph was getting ready to put the finishing touches on a red 1964 Mercury Parklane when his cell phone started to ring. He looked at his phone and did not recognize the phone number. Despite not recognizing the number, he had a feeling he needed to answer this phone call. “Hello” Ralph says concern in his voice. “Hi, this is Dr. Johnson from Memorial Care Health Systems.” Ralphs heart started to beat forcefully out of his chest. Tears started to form in his eyes. “Maria was in a car accident. She has been admitted into the ICU. Her injuries are pretty extensive.” Ralph hung up the phone and bolted out the door. He told Anthony to lock up the shop. Maria was in a bad accident. His mind was spinning and couldn’t believe this was happening. He quickly called Sophia and told her what happened to Maria. “Whatever you do Sophia do not tell the boys what happened. I want to tell them. I will call my parents to see if they can watch the boys for the rest of the evening. Ugh I have to tell Maria’s parents somehow. Anyways I know you have school tomorrow so I do not want to burden you with this. Thank you for everything.”
When Ralph gets to the ICU, he starts to fall apart even more. A patient coded and some of the staff is running past him. Among the ruckus a lady pops up from behind the counter and asks Ralph who he was looking for? “Ah, Ma Maria Anderson,” Ralph replies. “Mr. Anderson please have a seat over in the waiting room” said the woman. Ralph absolutely loses it “Why can’t I see my wife? Where is she? I need to see her?” In the middle of his rant Maria’s parents arrive. They briskly walk over to him and try to calm him down. Somehow, they magically got him to head over to the waiting room. An hour has passes, Marias family is exhausted and irritable. Dr. Johnson walks over to them and says “I am sorry. I am afraid Maria has passed. Her injuries were extensive and we were able to make her comfortable. About an hour ago she took a turn for the worst and we were unable to revive her.” Ralph felt like he was shot in the heart; he was in shock. Maria’s parents started to break down and hysterically cry. Their lives forever changed.
Natalie is the author of The Many Colors of Natalie, a book of poetry.  She holds an associates degree in Specialized Technology Le Cornon Bleu Pastry Arts and in her spare time is an artist and percussionist.

Wednesday, July 18, 2018

Distracted

for C.K. Williams

Charles, forgive me for I am distracted and the peculiar wolfish light
of your poems has been refracted by my moony frame of my mind.

My inattention to the minuscule detail daubed into the grain of the page
I'll compare laughably to Hamlet's inability to kill a king,

to the howling winds of Elsinore keep, to the brazen windy farts
of an off-, off-, very off-Broadway audience, say the Bowery, say Fayette County;

the rain pearling at the window and the pliant resigned mews of a white
cat in a denim lap wage a hushed war conscripting my wife's arsenal

of potted plants and the relentless sizzling explosions strafing the skillet
under her expert hand and the lovely red rain of spices that glimmer

down into the wide black eye of the dinner pan; the peppery aroma
redolent of her humid breath and the late summer nights in Baltimore

when the curtains were left lashed and the neighbor across the way
got a good look at our shared red skin; Charles, let's pinkie swear

someday to share a summer solstice, hold it between us like a document,
the terms of my surrender bold as the signature of a founding father,

your words measured as a tailor's tape no longer groping at the smooth
face of my negligence, my dreams no longer of Anna but of the lesser vagaries of art.



Kristofer Collins is the Books Editor for Pittsburgh Magazine and the publisher of Low Ghost Press.

The Rumproller

There is a great banging coming from inside the brewery,
while out here in the sun my blood knocks at the blue
ceilings of my veins like an irate tenant in the apartment
one floor down unprepared for that first blast of Lee
Morgan's trumpet as The Rumproller kicks off its assault
on the funk-deprived asses of Butler Street. The outdoor
benches are bare of shade and the spring-shocked trees
of Allegheny Cemetery, absent their green regalia
stand there in a stupor. Goddamn, it's really gonna happen!
The winter has donned its shabby hat and shown itself
the door. They arrive like Romero's contribution
to our everlasting pulp canon. The sun and this last day
of March crawling around their faces, ready for renewal,
eager for sex and the gauzy delinquent decisions of warm days
and warmer more spectacular nights. A nod is all we need
to say we survived. The world didn't end, and that was not
guaranteed. Touch my hand, put your hand to my cheek.
I'm so happy to see you again. The sun is shaking its
beautiful fat ass all across the sky. Etiquette demands
we do the same.

Kristofer Collins is the Books Editor for Pittsburgh Magazine and the publisher of Low Ghost Press.

Grandmothers

(from Costa Rica)


I slump in the lookout, resting swollen feet
on a rattan seat. Baggies of ice are sweating
over my vanished ankles. The humidity
of hours at a pasteboard desk, or hereditary
tremors of my ever-enlarging heart?

Is it because I am thinking about grandmothers,
their habits and leftovers? Metaphorical stockings
rolled below my knees, agéd heels of memory propped
on a pouffe printed with gold cedars of Lebanon,
or a footstool draped with delicate Italian lace.

As my friend Jo Ann, a grandmother, slid into coma
at the flower mountain hospital—Montefiore—
she roared in her final sleep. Browned spotted arms
stretched tight, skin of an antique drum. But her feet,
uncovered—so fragile, arched like a martyred saint.

Angele Ellis’s latest book is Under the Kaufmann’s Clock (Six Gallery Press), a hybrid prose and poetry valentine to her adopted city, with photos by Rebecca Clever. She also is author of Spared (A Main Street Rag Editors’ Choice Chapbook), and Arab on Radar (Six Gallery), whose poems won her a fellowship from the PA Council on the Arts.

Reflections on a Vase

After Rilke’s “Archaic Torso of Apollo”

Museum sculptures glow like lamps at dusk.
My guttering spark
departs this world’s archaic brilliance.

I am that cheap amphora
turned by machine to gore its sides.
A clichéd female curve
below a gaping mouth.

What florists dust on whatnot shelves
for wan refrigerated buds
and spores of baby’s breath.

My vessel carries brittle stalks
in its restricted borders,
brown spires like frozen seaweed
without the ocean’s thunder, 

the burnt sienna of November.
Deader than dead,
one branch points inward

its accusing finger. Dickens’ third ghost
seeing my future: a deserted grave.
Here, there is nothing that sees me.
You must change your life—but how?

Angele Ellis’s latest book is Under the Kaufmann’s Clock (Six Gallery Press), a hybrid prose and poetry valentine to her adopted city, with photos by Rebecca Clever. She also is author of Spared (A Main Street Rag Editors’ Choice Chapbook), and Arab on Radar (Six Gallery), whose poems won her a fellowship from the PA Council on the Arts.

Celebrating Life

Since 2003, the month of June has, for me, been a reminder of my grandparents’ deaths. Every year, I find myself marking the anniversary of their departures from this world and thinking about how their passing has impacted my life. My Pap passed away a week after I graduated high school and his death marked the beginning of a difficult transition into adulthood. My grandmother followed twelve years and two days later, making me realize that I no longer had a single grandparent living, and that I had taken their presence for granted. To this day, I still feel their absence every time I drive by their old house, eat traditional Slovak food, or hear Unchained Melody on the radio.

And while June has been emotionally significant for me in a negative sense, I'm only recently realizing that it doesn’t have to be. Because June was significant for my grandparents for other reasons – reasons that I’ve always known but for some reason have been overlooking for more than a decade.

June was also a month for celebrating life -- they were both born in June and got married in June. It was a month for family, for fun, and for love, celebrating three important events often at once as they were in such close succession – June 7th, June 15th, and June 16th marked Gram’s birthday, Pap’s birthday, and their anniversary.

So instead of thinking about the pain and the difficult changes their deaths brought to my family and my life, I want to try to focus on celebrating their legacy.  Both of my grandparents were children of Czech immigrants. They grew up with little to no luxuries, living in small homes and sharing and ethnic food with over a dozen brothers and sisters between the two of them. They met when they were thirteen and fourteen, married in the early fifties, and raised five children in a house full of love and Czech phrases and curse words that are still muttered by surviving generations.

Some of the best memories from my childhood and teen years were listening to them tell stories about growing up in the aftermath of the Great Depression, exploring the then-open fields of West Mifflin where Gypsies roamed in the summer, and finding buried treasure in what is now Kennywood’s parking lot. I loved hearing them talk about their immigrant parents, mimicking the Slovakian accents with fondness. My grandma often told funny stories that came along with raising five children, and my pap had plenty to share when it came to him working in the steel mills that put Pittsburgh on the map.

I remember spending countless nights sleeping over in their big, old house, watching Gram make homemade nut rolls, pierogis, and chicken noodle soup, and watching Pap tend his giant garden and fiddle with the antiques he collected and occupied most of the basement and attic.
I remember the warm, bright days that were unmistakably June - a month for celebrating Father’s Day, attending graduation parties, and going to Kennywood picnics. The amusement park always held a special place in my pap’s heart, as he and Gram spent many nights dancing under the old band shell and squishing together in old-fashioned photo booths for black and white pictures.
June was a month of sitting at picnic tables, eating barbecue and cake, splashing in Gram and Pap’s Koi pond, getting dirty playing in their yard, climbing trees and swinging on the swing set. It was a month for celebration, full of love, and full of life.

So as June circles by on the calendar again this year, I’ll try not to cry over their absence, but smile and laugh as I celebrate their beautiful lives.

Stacy is a 2003 graduate of West Mifflin Area High School and has completed two courses with The Institute of Children’s Literature. She writes novels for teenagers and adults, both of which can be found on Amazon. Stacy lives in Munhall with her husband and fur kid, and besides writing, enjoys reading, Penguins hockey, and traveling.

Submerging, a review by Rachael Bindas

Submerging, a small literary magazine based in Patterson, NY, intricately weaves short stories, poetry, and photography together into one seamless publication. The nostalgic black-and-white photographs perfectly complement the writing, enhanced by publication’s glossy cardstock.

The Summer 2018 issue is titled, “Where are we in the story.” The issue focuses on characters and speakers at various stages of their lives, and the personal introspection that comes with each stage of life. In “Jobs and Teeth” by Jude Vachon, the narrator reflects on how jobs can spoil like bad teeth: “Sometimes they have to come out, they’re rotten.” The reader gains the sense that the narrator teeters on the edge of a precipice, craving a dramatic change but not quite fulfilling that desire.

Threaded together by feelings of loneliness, the stories and poems are intermixed, rather than being separated by genre. The result is an experience of harmonious, uninterrupted reading and appreciation. Each story and poem shares in a collective sense of uncertainty. You know where your characters are in their individual stories, but you do not necessarily know where their stories may lead.

Rachael Bindas is a freelance writer and editor from Pittsburgh, PA. She focuses mainly on fiction, but still harbors a deep love for poetry. Her work has been featured in Moledro Magazine, Aeons, The Curious Element Magazine, and The Holiday Cafe.