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Friday, October 1, 2021

Letter from the Editor - Fall 2021

 Hello Cafe'ers


I honestly cannot believe that it is already October.  I feel that summer flew by exceptionally quickly this year... which is a shame, I truly love summer and I am not liking the fact that it gets dark earlier now and will continue to do so... I think I may already have the winter blahs and it's not even winter yet - ha!

At any rate, I have a pretty awesome issue for you - lots of great submissions both written and artistic.

If you or anyone you know would like to submit something for our winter issue - we are now taking submissions for that issue - email me at holidaycafe.nicole@gmail.com thank you.  Check out our Facebook group page too, if you get a minute.

I am also working on a side project and I am looking for artists, illustrators, editors, authors, publishers, etc. to interview for my YouTube channel... if you are interested, email me holidaycafe.nicole@gmail.com .  It has been a lot of fun talking with the talented folks I have met so far.


Stay safe and see you for the winter edition,


Nicole



Thursday, October 1, 2020

Songwriter

Flannery O’Connor said that when people asked her why she was a writer she’d reply, “Because I’m good at it.” What I wouldn’t give to have that kind of confidence! And if anybody ever asks me why I try to write songs, I hope I’m brave enough to say, “Because I’m good at it!” Notice I had to stick the “try” in “try to write songs.” Luckily, nobody asks. 

Actually, one person asks me why I write songs, and that person is me. But it is always part of a longer questions like, “Why do you write songs instead of using the weapons of mass destruction necessary to kill the mold behind the washer and dryer that threaten to destroy your families source of clean clothes? Don’t you care if your wife and children have smelly clothes?” 

 The offer is tempting. If I go work on the mold, I don’t have to deal with the other things in the basement I’d rather not deal with. Such as my song notebook, heavy and fat because I save all of my rough drafts. Why? Because I’m good at saving things. The notebook always wants another verse. My guitar case says, “Open up, a song isn’t finished without a cool riff.” Then the mic stand says, “That melody is lame, better learn a Bob Dylan song instead.” It makes me want to head upstairs. 

If only I had an ounce of Flannery O’Connor’s confidence, I could just push through. I try to convince myself of that. Then again, I didn’t have Robert Lowell, Robert Penn Warren, Caroline Gordon, and Robert and Sally Fitzgerald telling me I was a good writer. Who wouldn’t have confidence if the top literary minds of their day praised their work? But that was after O’Connor got to the Iowa Writer’s Workshop. You don’t just end up at the Iowa Writer’s Workshop by making a wrong turn on the way to Atlanta. She knew she was good before she got there. I imagine one day she looked down at what she had written and said, “Wow. That’s legit.” Then she showed it to her friends, family, and/or teacher and they said, “Wow. That’s legit.” 

She was also of the school that you either have it or you don’t. If you don’t, God has some other plan for you. But I still entertain doubts that I’m on the wrong side of “it.” Why do I need external affirmation of my songwriting – every day? I’ve been doing this for a long time. 

Then I read this quote from St. Theresa of Avila, “Watch carefully, for everything passes quickly, even though your impatience makes doubtful what is certain, and turns a very short time into a long one.”

It reminded me of an interview I did with the local bluegrass legend Mac Martin several years ago. He told me that the best thing that ever happened to him was having a family and a day job that prevented him from touring. Bill Monroe and Flatt and Scruggs were professionals, but in order to remain “professional” they had to alter their sound to stay with the times. Martin played local gigs and did whatever he wanted. In the process, he stayed true to his original sound and long after Monroe and Flatt and Scruggs were gone, bluegrass purists flocked to him for his authentic sound. He was more famous in his 70s and 80s than ever. 

Everything passes quickly, so I better get working on those new songs, and the mold too.  

Mark Sullivan is the guitarist in The Deep Roots.

Friday, September 28, 2018

Rogue BBQ - Fall 2018 Interview

A few months back, there was a BIG event at my son's school... to help with the redistricting of the
elementary schools... We had everything from a dunk tank to giant inflatables to food trucks... because how else are you going to provide food for hundreds of people?!

I put a call for food trucks out on my Facebook page and low and behold someone replied... someone I have known since preschool (that would be 35 plus years)... We worked out some details and he showed up with his truck that day...

The people loved the food... it was a good day all around.

I personally love the pulled pork tacos (they are to die for!!)... I have had the opportunity to get them a few more times since then... thank goodness!  I even got a bit of catering from Rogue BBQ for my son and husband's birthday dinner.

I got to ask Rogue BBQ some questions... check out their responses - then go find them... you won't be disappointed... I Promise!

1. How did you get into the food truck business? 

We were invited to participate at two local multi day events, Renzi Rib fest and South Park BMX state and national races. We began our operation with tow behind smokers, and 10x10 pop up canopies. Rogue was the brain child of these two events, as the brand grew so did the need for a more mobile setup.

2. What’s the biggest misconception people might have about food trucks? 

Not all food trucks are created equal. Folks get excited because trucks are trendy and popular, but there is a difference between the chef driven menus and the rest. Pittsburgh has some really great food truck chefs out there, ours included that create chef developed concepts in a mobile unit. There is a lack of recognition for the hard work that is put in, which sometimes more often than not is very comparable to running a brick and mortar. However, the recognition for the brick and mortar chefs are more prevalent.

3. How did you pick the menu for the food truck? 

We kept our staples like the smoked wings, and smoked ribs but we wanted to stay true to the mischievous yet playful definition of Rogue. Each item had to fulfill the expectations of great BBQ while being easily prepared on the road. After several trial runs which included some winners (brisket nachos, pulled pork tacos) and some not to be mentioned losers, are menu was created. Rogue composes the menus based upon events, everything from smoked turkey legs, to strawberry pretzel salad has seen their turn on the menu.

 4. How are Rogue and Westwood connected (I know Rogue operates out of Westwood)? 

Westwood is the sister catering company to Rogue. It is where we launched our first business, and is the home to both companies now.

5. What has been the most amusing thing that has happened at a food truck event? 

It is so hard to nail down one specific event because we have a lot of fun while we are on the road. We love the furry friends, and you will usually catch us feeding them some great brisket, sometimes you may hear our team using swashbuckling pirate or macho man randy savage accents, other times they may be out dancing with the guests near the stage.

6. What’s the future for Rogue? Will you be selling the sauces/rubs? T-shirts? Swag –etc.?

 You can purchase our t shirts and hoodies at Westwood, or contact us at roguebbqpgh@gmail.com. Currently we are working to package the dry rubs and dusts, and should be launching those in Spring 2019. Rogue is developing the plans to open a brick and mortar as well, but no date has yet been set.

7. Tell the readers how they can get a hold of you if they want you at their events and/or catered food – and where you will be ‘parked’ soon. 

You can find all of this information on our website at roguebbqpgh.com or by liking us on facebook/twitter @roguebbqpgh

Wednesday, September 26, 2018

Midas Protocol Series

(Chapter ONE)
# # Caroline's Choice # #
(PROOF COPY -- Not for distribution.)

Caroline's Choice
Monday, January 8, 1990 - Point Park University

Caroline Friday was not sure what she was getting into when she enrolled in Professor Bill Murdock’s Investigative Reporting class. After all, she heard from other students he was an asshole. How bad could he be though? He certainly couldn’t be worse than Pete Gardner at Burger Empire?
In itself, being an asshole was not a bad thing. She wouldn’t hold that against Professor Murdock (or anyone for that matter) because people called her that word a lot too. What worried her more was that the investigative reporting class sounded like a lot of work and Caroline had too many things going on in her life now.

After she quit her job at Burger Empire, she gave in to her father’s wishes and decided to attend Pointless Park College. She entertained, if not resigned herself to, the idea of a business degree, and a predictable safe career in the family restaurant business. Jubilant, her father promptly added her back to the rotation at the restaurant, where she now pulled three full shifts a week (and the hair out of head). Though she detested her role as a hostess, she had to admit that the money helped. Still, twenty four hours of work plus five classes? The last thing she needed was a super busy, demanding course, and she was skeptical if this class would be easy. She heard this professor could be demanding. Compounding matters, her father would certainly not approve of this course. If it was not a business course, it was a waste of money in his opinion.

Nevertheless, investigative reporting piqued her interest and she wanted to take at least one class that was outside her wheelhouse. She felt her Dad at least owed her that. Although she thought she had made a wise decision by caving in to her father’s wishes to go to college, what choice did she really have? After quitting Burger Empire her options were limited. She had no car. No job. She couldn’t do anything but agree to her father’s wishes. She suspected her father knew that but acted like she was a making a good choice all on her own accord. Her father meant well although he was patronizing to no end. Therefore, if she took this course, it would be all Caroline’s choice--and that made her feel good.

Still, she had to be careful. As interested as she was in the investigative reporting course, the last thing she needed was another ball-breaking professor who piled the work on--let alone a professor who espoused an egocentric theory of the universe where his or her great mind illumined all with its intellectual brilliance. They all felt like they should be up the hill at Carnegie Mellon University. Moreover, since she was taking the class as an elective she did not want to break a sweat when there were other classes that appeared much easier. There was the art appreciation class she had considered. Word had it that it was a walk in the park, literally.

So here she was, unusually early: the only one sitting in the makeshift computer lab at the head of a series of a uneven conference-style table arrangements. She shuffled through a thick syllabus and a chock full of Point Park University registration papers.

Caroline was dressed in bright red, over-sized flannel shirt. Underneath this getup, she sported a black-ribbed tank. Her neck was hung with two silver chains, one of which featured a amulet of Gothic design. Her purple-streaked, dark long hair was still wet from her morning shower and most of it was still tucked up and under a gray cotton beanie. She wore her favorite black denim jeans today. Her army green parka was slung over the back of her chair. Wrapped around her hips, a dark gray hoodie brought her layered look together. As she completed the papers, she nibbled on the frames of her wayfarer black sunglasses (a Christmas gift from her prospering, humble-brag brother Sam). Her lips were rouged in a less attention getting color of pink. Not one to spend a lot of time outside, no matter what time of the year, Carline’s smooth and drawn out cheeks were pale as was her overall complexion.

She continued to fuss with the papers. The bureaucratic forms were redundant to the point that made her want to pull the hair out of her head. She sighed, tapped her dark red nails against the hard Formica table top, and settled down to the task of completing the forms.

Gradually, other students filtered into the room. About five minutes past the hour, and the room now a chatterbox, Point Park professor Bill Murdock entered the classroom. He shut the door behind him with a resounding thunk. The room chatter came to a loud silence.

This man was not what she expected: Murdock was a stout five-foot-eleven, give or take. He was fair-skinned like Caroline, with a circumference of dirty blond hair that curved around his balding, wrinkled dome. Rather built in the shoulders, Murdock would be athletic looking were it not for the enormous beer gut.

“Welcome to Investigative Reporting, Two-oh-Two, eh, Four-oh-four, for the grad students,” Professor Murdock said. The groggy professor coughed, then snorted, which had the effect of retracting a yellow booger back into his right nostril, which she had not noticed when it was hanging.
Caroline found his low voice surprising. It did not seem to match the man’s face. His words carried deep, raspy, somewhat guttural and he was booming. Caroline moved her chair back. However, he projected like a sub-woofer: wherever you sat, you felt his voice full on. He was simply a loud guy.
“My name is Bill Murdock,” he shouted, passing out poorly copied and sloppily stapled papers. “This class will be unlike any you have ever taken. I promise you that. What we are all about here is proving the innocence of those already proven guilty. There are two million people incarcerated in the U.S. prison system... I have for the past twenty years covered the crime and punishment beat for the Post-Gazette,” he continued, while still passing around papers.

“I have seen government misconduct first hand and what it can do to wreck lives.... I believe about five-percent of everyone incarcerated in our prison system is innocent.... Out of two million people, you do the math. That means one thing: we have a lot of fucking work to do.”

What did he just say? Caroline’s attention perked up when she heard him drop the F-bomb. This was something that would never happen in some of the business classes, she was sure of it. Those business professors were buttoned-down and conservative. Murdock dressed like he didn’t care and apparently spoke like it too. She immediately liked that about the man whom--according to the bio she had in front of her--was a celebrated Pittsburgh Post-Gazette staff writer.

She looked around the room. Most of the students seemed to be surprised at the man’s profane language and his less than professorial appearance.

“I am sorry class,” Murdock said. “You will have to forgive but I have an incurable case of irritable vowel syndrome.”

A general cloud of chuckles and smirks rose to the top of the class along with several confused looks.

“Anybody know what that means?” He asked.

There was silence. Caroline was loving this guy now. He was not a typical professor. Nobody spoke up. A lot of faces turned to each other.

“It means if you are offended by foul language you may as well get the fuck out of my class now,” He said. “Oops, another flare up.”

The class erupted in laughter. Caroline smiled. She was going to like Professor Murdock. He was her kind of guy and she loved his lack of pomp and circumstance. Murdock was a cool dude. She could see that working on his projects would be incredibly interesting.

Caroline finished reading his bio. Though he dressed like one, he was no slouch when it came to Journalism credentials. Professor Murdock, according to his food stained curriculum vitae, was once nominated for the Pulitzer Prize for a muckraking series on the Federal Witness Relocation Program. She was immediately mesmerized by the man and the course objectives.

Murdock ranted about the wrongfully convicted, “The goal of The Innocence Institute is to overturn wrongful convictions! Now make up your mind if you can devote yourself to this class. It will be demanding. We will visit crime sites. You will go to prisons and interview hard core inmates, convicted murderers, rapists. You will interview their family members, reexamine evidence. You will go to their trials. You will have an experience unlike any other one you will have in college.

Moreover, you will make a difference and I mean that...” Murdock paused. “Now, we have a lot of work to do.... I want to dive in right away.... I am going to pass around cases. Some of these cases, which are already being worked on by students, have been mailed to us by inmates.... Now keep in mind that everyone in these folders have been proven guilty. Many of them are not innocent, so don’t go crazy about what some of these people were put away for. Some of it is grisly and disturbing.”
A large stack of legal brown folders plummeted onto the four or five conference tables and kept growing. Inevitably, the piles became unstable and toppled. Folders spilled everywhere. Students dealt the splayed folders across the table like playing cards. It was all the luck of the draw at this point. Caroline was filled with excitement at the down and dirty folders that came her way. What horrors might they contain? What reminders would they serve that her life was not that bad?
Each time Murdock left the classroom to go to his office, he astoundingly returned with more folders and reams of paper. The details of the cases were, as he promised: grisly and disturbing.

There was the accountant who killed his wife with a gun he purchased at K-Mart and then turned it on his infant children. There was a teenager who walloped his shop teacher over the head with a ball peen hammer at Perrysville High School--that one hit a little close to home as Perrysville was near West View. How about the woman who drowned all her children--she was particularly loathsome to consider. Then there was the crack addict who didn’t remember stabbing a prostitute, chopping her up and stuffing her into a fifty-five gallon drum in his backyard. That one turned heads and tightened knotted stomachs.

Before long, an undulating sea of manila folders, containing poorly typed and misspelled letters from inmates, crime photos, depositions, witness interviews, crime scene diagrams, court transcriptions and a sea of other documents--covered the tables. Students passed the cases from hand to hand and it all reminded Caroline of dam workers hoping to stop a flood by passing along sandbag after sandbag--only in this case the sandbags were folders filled with unimaginable crimes and horrors.
As the students examined the cases, Murdock explained some of the more promising ones--at least in terms of their potential innocence. His current team was on the verge of getting the Solomon Milliron case reopened, he explained.

Milliron was a biker doing life for a double murder stemming from a drug deal that went bad. A government informant, and fellow biker who rode with the Pythons out of Cleveland, gave false testimony in eye-witnessing Milliron at the scene of the murder. Milliron rode with the Punishers out of Pittsburgh. Ostensibly, the gangs were at odds with each other. However, it turned out Milliron could not have been at the place where and when the murder went down because when it happened he was in an Alabama drunk tank--the result of a pistol whipping he delivered to a cocktail server that had shut him off. It was clear that that informant had lied.

As reprehensible as the Milliron was, he simply could not be at both places at the same time. Despite these facts, he was awaiting his turn at the executioner’s hand.

Caroline raised her hand. She was the first in the entire class to ask a question. The class became quiet. Murdock seemed eager to hear what she had to say.

“So how do you feel about the death penalty Professor Murdock?” Caroline said with a natural confidence. She didn’t even look up from the case file that she was reading when she had asked the question. Murdock pondered the question and studied Caroline with a slight smile evident on his face.

“Why do you ask?” Murdock said.

“This guy I am reading about right now... Bastard was convicted of hiring someone to kill his ex-girlfriend. Her poor kid died because he was standing with his mom. He was only eight. Eight! Mother fucker!” She paused. The class became quiet. “Honestly, I think this prick deserves to die--if he did it. I don’t see how a burglar would have accidentally wandered into her house at that time... ” She grew louder. “For Christ’s sake, there is a picture of the kid here.”

Caroline stood up abruptly and turned to the class waving a black and white photo of a young boy that had been shot and left on the kitchen floor of his house. Caroline huffed and sat back down with a look of gloom passing across her face. She slammed the photo on the table. Murdock and the class all focused on Caroline. Caroline was shaking her head and now slide back in her seat.
Only the snapping of a student’s bubble gum and the trance inducing ballast hum of the fluorescent lights, broke the awkward silence. The folders had stopped their rotation. Caroline pounded the table. Anger flashed across her face. “What do you guys think? That kid never had a chance. I would throw the fucking switch myself on whoever did that to him.”

No one said a word.

Caroline gazed around the classroom, becoming distinctly aware that someone passed gas. Murdock’s nostrils flared, but if he was the culprit, he gave no indication other than a brief pause and wry wrinkle at the corner of his pinkish, narrow lips. Well, this class is going to be laid back.

Murdock, in blue jeans, put a dirty white Reebok up on the table. Ah, the source of the offending smell was revealed. Mashed into the shoe’s tread was dog poop, a cigarette butt, and grass clippings.
Murdock scratched his blond goatee. Caroline guessed the chin hair was the magical switch that kick-started the man’s brilliant brain. Dog poop on his shoe and all, Prof Murdock moved right along.
“There was this guy Red Dog who got into the Federal Witness Relocation program. New life. New identity... New Red Dog. Well, Red Dog befriended an elderly lady, Theresa Clemenceau. Everything was fine... In fact, he used to come over and baby sit Theresa’s granddaughter on occasion. Then one day, Red Dog went back to his old ways. The police found Mrs. Clemenceau with her head cut off, her ten-year-old granddaughter raped and left for dead in the basement. Red Dog wasn’t done yet. Nope. He went on a seven-state killing rampage that ended when the State of Alabama put enough juice through this sonuvabitch that could have powered the lights at Three Rivers Stadium.”
Murdock looked at her squarely, nodding, pausing for dramatic effect. Then, he turned to the rest of the class. “The world was safer the day they executed Red Dog.” Murdock said loudly. “So, Miss Friday, to answer you question, I would have to say that when it comes to the death penalty, I am on a case-by-case basis.” He paused, lingering on her for a moment with a look of pride. “Great question--now when did I step in dog shit?”

The class laughed. Caroline held back a smile, feeling uneasy. For the first time she realized that all the eyes in the class had turned toward her. Wow. When she launched her rant, she had been totally oblivious to anyone around her. Now she felt the presence of the entire class staring at her.
Murdock looked around the classroom, while wiping the bottom of his shoe tread off the sharp edge of a chair back. “You know in over twenty years not one person asked me that question--do you believe in the death penalty?”

He laughed, shook his head, and gazed proudly at Caroline. “They assumed they knew the answer,” Murdock said, now pacing the room. He stared up, scratching his goatee once again. “Hell, even I assumed I knew my own answer, but sometimes an answer can be surprising, or not entirely what you suspect. There is never an answer to an unasked question. Sometimes the toughest questions we need to ask are the ones we should ask to ourselves.”

Caroline listened through the remainder of the three-hour class as Professor Murdock explained all tricks of the trade and how prosecutors routinely cut deals with crack addicts, hookers or lunatics simply to get testimony that might put somebody away for good. He described a fraud called “Jumping on the Bus” where convicts memorized details of privileged cases, leaked no doubt by privileged eyes, and gave prosecutors affirmations of unproven facts in exchange for leniency or reduced sentences. Caroline found it riveting and fascinating. It astounded her that the legal system worked in such a way.

Murdock left the room and the class to decide what cases they wanted to investigate for the semester. There were about five tables of students in all. Each table had about four or five students and would constitute an investigative team. The task at hand was for each to team to pick a case to investigate. In that regards, the members of each team were the result of pure luck. She looked at the students at her table.

Brad Church was tall, lanky, and nerdy. He appeared very cerebral in nature, but seemed tired and disinterested in picking a case. She noted he took the opportunity to get a head start on his accounting homework instead of focusing on the cases in front of them. Caroline was reasonably sure Brad was also in her Accounting 101 class.

Ryan Billings sat next to him. He was a cute and attractive jock type. Right now he was preoccupied making inappropriate jokes about the cases he read. He donned a Point Park baseball hoodie, jeans and a Pittsburgh Pirates ball cap turned backwards. It seemed his best qualities would be served up in being invited to a fun frat party. She turned to the other student, Carly Gucci.

Carly was cut from the same stock that made Caroline and she immediately felt a liking for her. She was slender, wore really tight dark jeans, and a teeshirt that revealed a slim midriff featuring a belly button piercing and several ornamental floral tattoos. Her hair was cut short like a boys and had red streaks in it. She chewed gum loudly and when Caroline made eye contact, she was already smiling back. This would be a friend for sure.

Carly slid her chair closer to Caroline and together they started taking notes on the cases. Meanwhile, the boys were goofing around laughing at stuff they were looking at. Mostly it was Ryan making the obscene jokes. Brad seemed like the typical wet blanket nerd who laughed when required by a much cooler friend. Ryan looked at her a couple times attempting to make eye contact with her, but Caroline only would return a skeptical, if not dismissive look. He was cute, but she wasn’t easy.
After fifteen minutes or so, Caroline’s serious demeanor managed to finally get the boys attention and they all started rummaging through the folders. Caroline and Carly paid the most attention while the boys laughed at several nude photos of corpses. Ryan seemed to enjoy watching Carly take charge, and assume her role as a natural leader. Carly took meticulous notes. Finally, Brad put his accounting homework away and turned his focus to the task of helping out.

It was time to pick a case.

Although Murdock said any case across the nation was open to their Innocence Institute project, he preferred local ones. Local cases would be convenient in terms of resources and they helped politically too. It never hurt, Murdoch explained, when their efforts went noticed by the Point Park University board and the City of Pittsburgh. Towards those ends, he planned to pen a couple stories about their efforts and progress along the way. The school loved that kind of publicity and it helped when it came to funding and budget allocations, he explained.

Of all the cases that passed across her place at the table, one stood out in particular to Caroline:

Doverspike and Gibb, Death Row, 1983

There was something unusually familiar about those names. She had heard those names sometime before, long ago. She opened the folder and immediately remembered why the names sounded so familiar: both men were convicted of the murder of Lawrence and Eva Goodman-Bingham. It was a local case. She knew of the Bingham family.

Her Dad had catered a private party at the Bingham’s house a few years before he and his wife were murdered. Caroline was too young to care, but when this murder happened, it was big news in Pittsburgh. She remembered that was all her parents would talk about for one summer. They were such nice people, her Mom would say. Great tipper, her Dad had lamented. Of course, Caroline was thirteen when it happened.

"Let's do the Bingham murder,” Caroline said, to the students at her table. She slapped it down on top of the pile of folders. Once again that natural surge of enthusiasm and gusto percolated to the top of her personality. The other students at her table seemed to not really care too much about the case they selected. It seemed like Caroline had saved them work to do so they all agreed.

“Why that one?” Carly asked.

“I don’t know.” Caroline smiled, brushing a lock of hair behind her ear. “It sounds like a fun case I guess."

Carly laughed at her. “Fun? Okay, let’s have some fun then. I like a fun time.”

Caroline continued rummaging through grisly murder black-and-whites of burnt bodies. What a tragedy. The Binghams had it all and it was taken away from them by two locals--Rusty Gibb and Mark Doverspike. Of course, they both claimed they had nothing to do with the killings.

She looked at pictures of Gibb and Doverspike. Both looked like they could be any average working class, middle-aged males loafing in West View. Although, Rusty had more of nice guy appearance whereas Mark had mean look in his eyes. According to prosecutors, the men killed the Binghams because of a drug deal gone bad. However, there was no physical evidence connecting them to the crime. No clothing fibers, blood stains or other tangible evidence. Moreover, they claimed they both didn’t even know Veronica Westfall, the woman that claimed she knew about their plans ahead of time and was there when they did it. So this millionaire couldn’t pay for his weed? In a rather sad twist of fate, it looked like half their work was done. Mark was shivved in prison and died several years after sentencing.  Rusty was on Pennsylvania’s Death Row waiting out his turn at Graterford State Prison in Graterford, Pennsylvania. He wrote letters often, proclaiming his innocence.

Murdock, who had been silently observing Caroline from the front of the room, smiled like he had discovered a long lost daughter. While most of the class seemed befuddled by her carefree and nonchalant perusing of the murder photos, Bill Murdock had a knowing look in his eye. Students like Caroline Friday didn’t come along often, not even once every ten years, but he knew when a gem had been uncovered.

Caroline studied the contents of the manila folder, her mind furiously working on the details, already taking notes, underlining text and dissecting testimony, breaking down the events of the murder in her mind. Little did she know it would be some time before she would ever close that manila folder again.

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Matt De Reno is a fiction writer living in Pittsburgh. He also works as a product manager for an aerospace and automotive publications company. When not writing fiction, you might find him chasing his disobedient dog down the street. 
You can learn more about Matt and the Midas Protocol at scratchwriting.com

Monday, September 24, 2018

Framed Memory

“when did we become friends?”
-Wanda Coleman

Polkadots and feathers fill my head
as I pack my photographs in dusty boxes,
hauling them into the attic.

I listen as the floorboards speak.
I hear their whispers to one another,
their breath blowing onto my feet.
My skin chills with each step,
their cold words tattooed onto my skin.

I place the box onto a pile of magazines,
Vanity Fair, Cosmo, Vogue.
Dust floats like feathers,
tinted sunlight breaking through the window.

I pull a photograph out of the box
and stare as dust settles on the frame.
Two girls jump on a bed, pillows raised high.
Their feet curled up and their hair standing tall.
They’re floating, like the feathers, like the dust.
Time stands still, paused, frozen.

I place the photograph back in the box
and fold the tabs on the top.
As I walk away, I listen to the boards continue
their whispering, talking behind my back
like two little girls gossiping
at a sleepover.


Cassandra Skweres is a junior at Pittsburgh CAPA 6-12 located in Downtown Pittsburgh. She has been attending CAPA since 6th grade and will be continuing to study literary until she graduates. Cassandra enjoys to write, dance, sing, and do photography. 

But am I Beautiful on the Inside?



Rebekah Skweres - Pittsburgh Capa for Visual Arts student.  I was drawing it when I felt that I was making art that was decent and aesthetically pleasing, but I was transitioning to a new school and felt I was bothering too many people because I didn’t know what I was doing. I felt like I was burdening others in asking too much. I was also in the process of improving drawing the side profile from memory. This piece is titled as the quote inside it, “But am I beautiful on the inside?”

Thursday, September 20, 2018

Maria - Fall 2018


Maria Anderson is a stay at home mom. She has olive skin, long brown hair, and a bubbly personality. Women envy her for her slender figure; she always looks refreshed, and well kept. Ralph Anderson, Maria’s husband, is the owner of Ralph’s Auto Body Shop. The community raves about his exceptional work and fair pricing.  Ralph is quite handsome; ladies practically throw themselves at him. Maria surprisingly laughs. She knows Ralph would never leave her. Their relationship is strong, healthy, and far from boring.
They have three adorable boys under the age of ten. Noah is the oldest. He is eight years old and loves to skateboard. Jacob is the middle child and is six years old and loves to read comic books. Ethan is the youngest child. He just turned three last week. Ethan looks up to his older brothers immensely. Noah and Jacob really enjoy hanging out with Ethan, most of the time. Ethan gets so excited whenever his older brothers suggest making obstacle courses for his gazillion matchbox cars.
The Anderson family lives in a home that captures the early 1900 charm in Long Beach, California. Ralph works countless hours to be able to afford the mortgage. Ralph would do anything to ensure the happiness and safety of his family. Maria knows how hard her husband works. That’s why she always makes sure the house is spotless, the kids are decently behaved, and Ralph always has a delicious meal waiting for him at dinnertime. Ralph is always amazed how clean the house is when he gets home, with his three rambunctious boys you would think that was far from possible. He always raves to his customers about Maria’s cooking.
On Tuesday and Thursday evenings Sophia, a neighbor to the Andersons, babysits the boys so Maria can have some me time.  Maria really enjoys taking the hour-long yoga class on the beach, it’s just enough time for her to refresh. Plus, it’s only a three-minute drive from their house. Maria decided to take a few extra minutes after class to plop herself in the sand and reflect on how lucky she is. Maria has a family that is happy and healthy and would not trade her life for anyone else’s.
As the sun starts to set, Maria decides to brush the sand off of herself and heads towards her vintage navy-blue VW bug. Maria was going North on Pacific Avenue, not having a care in the world. The windows were down and the wind was blowing thru her long beautiful hair. She was at a red light waiting to make a left onto W 7th Street. Maria looks in her mirror and notices a green pickup truck slightly swerving and not slowing down. Maria has nowhere to go. She was stuck. All she could do was brace for impact and pray. The sounds of smashing metal, screeching tires, and car horns were filling the air with noise pollution. Two other cars were in front of Maria and it created a domino effect. First her head bounces forcefully off the steering wheel. Immediately she felt a warm liquid ooze from her forehead and start to trickle down her face. Maria becomes lightheaded. It was getting harder for her to breath because of the broken ribs that punctured her lungs.
The once polished antique VW beetle now looks like a beat-up accordion with steam spewing out of the mangled hood of the car. Emergency vehicle sirens were blasting thru the streets. Sophia and the boys saw the emergency vehicles whip past the house. Sophia’s stomach dropped. She knew those sirens were for Mrs. Anderson. Maria was never fifteen minutes late; maybe a couple minutes late here and there, but never fifteen.
Ralph was getting ready to put the finishing touches on a red 1964 Mercury Parklane when his cell phone started to ring. He looked at his phone and did not recognize the phone number. Despite not recognizing the number, he had a feeling he needed to answer this phone call. “Hello” Ralph says concern in his voice. “Hi, this is Dr. Johnson from Memorial Care Health Systems.” Ralphs heart started to beat forcefully out of his chest. Tears started to form in his eyes. “Maria was in a car accident. She has been admitted into the ICU. Her injuries are pretty extensive.” Ralph hung up the phone and bolted out the door. He told Anthony to lock up the shop. Maria was in a bad accident. His mind was spinning and couldn’t believe this was happening. He quickly called Sophia and told her what happened to Maria. “Whatever you do Sophia do not tell the boys what happened. I want to tell them. I will call my parents to see if they can watch the boys for the rest of the evening. Ugh I have to tell Maria’s parents somehow. Anyways I know you have school tomorrow so I do not want to burden you with this. Thank you for everything.”
When Ralph gets to the ICU, he starts to fall apart even more. A patient coded and some of the staff is running past him. Among the ruckus a lady pops up from behind the counter and asks Ralph who he was looking for? “Ah, Ma Maria Anderson,” Ralph replies. “Mr. Anderson please have a seat over in the waiting room” said the woman. Ralph absolutely loses it “Why can’t I see my wife? Where is she? I need to see her?” In the middle of his rant Maria’s parents arrive. They briskly walk over to him and try to calm him down. Somehow, they magically got him to head over to the waiting room. An hour has passes, Marias family is exhausted and irritable. Dr. Johnson walks over to them and says “I am sorry. I am afraid Maria has passed. Her injuries were extensive and we were able to make her comfortable. About an hour ago she took a turn for the worst and we were unable to revive her.” Ralph felt like he was shot in the heart; he was in shock. Maria’s parents started to break down and hysterically cry. Their lives forever changed.
Natalie is the author of The Many Colors of Natalie, a book of poetry.  She holds an associates degree in Specialized Technology Le Cornon Bleu Pastry Arts and in her spare time is an artist and percussionist.

Wednesday, July 18, 2018

The Rumproller

There is a great banging coming from inside the brewery,
while out here in the sun my blood knocks at the blue
ceilings of my veins like an irate tenant in the apartment
one floor down unprepared for that first blast of Lee
Morgan's trumpet as The Rumproller kicks off its assault
on the funk-deprived asses of Butler Street. The outdoor
benches are bare of shade and the spring-shocked trees
of Allegheny Cemetery, absent their green regalia
stand there in a stupor. Goddamn, it's really gonna happen!
The winter has donned its shabby hat and shown itself
the door. They arrive like Romero's contribution
to our everlasting pulp canon. The sun and this last day
of March crawling around their faces, ready for renewal,
eager for sex and the gauzy delinquent decisions of warm days
and warmer more spectacular nights. A nod is all we need
to say we survived. The world didn't end, and that was not
guaranteed. Touch my hand, put your hand to my cheek.
I'm so happy to see you again. The sun is shaking its
beautiful fat ass all across the sky. Etiquette demands
we do the same.

Kristofer Collins is the Books Editor for Pittsburgh Magazine and the publisher of Low Ghost Press.

Grandmothers

(from Costa Rica)


I slump in the lookout, resting swollen feet
on a rattan seat. Baggies of ice are sweating
over my vanished ankles. The humidity
of hours at a pasteboard desk, or hereditary
tremors of my ever-enlarging heart?

Is it because I am thinking about grandmothers,
their habits and leftovers? Metaphorical stockings
rolled below my knees, agéd heels of memory propped
on a pouffe printed with gold cedars of Lebanon,
or a footstool draped with delicate Italian lace.

As my friend Jo Ann, a grandmother, slid into coma
at the flower mountain hospital—Montefiore—
she roared in her final sleep. Browned spotted arms
stretched tight, skin of an antique drum. But her feet,
uncovered—so fragile, arched like a martyred saint.

Angele Ellis’s latest book is Under the Kaufmann’s Clock (Six Gallery Press), a hybrid prose and poetry valentine to her adopted city, with photos by Rebecca Clever. She also is author of Spared (A Main Street Rag Editors’ Choice Chapbook), and Arab on Radar (Six Gallery), whose poems won her a fellowship from the PA Council on the Arts.

Reflections on a Vase

After Rilke’s “Archaic Torso of Apollo”

Museum sculptures glow like lamps at dusk.
My guttering spark
departs this world’s archaic brilliance.

I am that cheap amphora
turned by machine to gore its sides.
A clichéd female curve
below a gaping mouth.

What florists dust on whatnot shelves
for wan refrigerated buds
and spores of baby’s breath.

My vessel carries brittle stalks
in its restricted borders,
brown spires like frozen seaweed
without the ocean’s thunder, 

the burnt sienna of November.
Deader than dead,
one branch points inward

its accusing finger. Dickens’ third ghost
seeing my future: a deserted grave.
Here, there is nothing that sees me.
You must change your life—but how?

Angele Ellis’s latest book is Under the Kaufmann’s Clock (Six Gallery Press), a hybrid prose and poetry valentine to her adopted city, with photos by Rebecca Clever. She also is author of Spared (A Main Street Rag Editors’ Choice Chapbook), and Arab on Radar (Six Gallery), whose poems won her a fellowship from the PA Council on the Arts.

Celebrating Life

Since 2003, the month of June has, for me, been a reminder of my grandparents’ deaths. Every year, I find myself marking the anniversary of their departures from this world and thinking about how their passing has impacted my life. My Pap passed away a week after I graduated high school and his death marked the beginning of a difficult transition into adulthood. My grandmother followed twelve years and two days later, making me realize that I no longer had a single grandparent living, and that I had taken their presence for granted. To this day, I still feel their absence every time I drive by their old house, eat traditional Slovak food, or hear Unchained Melody on the radio.

And while June has been emotionally significant for me in a negative sense, I'm only recently realizing that it doesn’t have to be. Because June was significant for my grandparents for other reasons – reasons that I’ve always known but for some reason have been overlooking for more than a decade.

June was also a month for celebrating life -- they were both born in June and got married in June. It was a month for family, for fun, and for love, celebrating three important events often at once as they were in such close succession – June 7th, June 15th, and June 16th marked Gram’s birthday, Pap’s birthday, and their anniversary.

So instead of thinking about the pain and the difficult changes their deaths brought to my family and my life, I want to try to focus on celebrating their legacy.  Both of my grandparents were children of Czech immigrants. They grew up with little to no luxuries, living in small homes and sharing and ethnic food with over a dozen brothers and sisters between the two of them. They met when they were thirteen and fourteen, married in the early fifties, and raised five children in a house full of love and Czech phrases and curse words that are still muttered by surviving generations.

Some of the best memories from my childhood and teen years were listening to them tell stories about growing up in the aftermath of the Great Depression, exploring the then-open fields of West Mifflin where Gypsies roamed in the summer, and finding buried treasure in what is now Kennywood’s parking lot. I loved hearing them talk about their immigrant parents, mimicking the Slovakian accents with fondness. My grandma often told funny stories that came along with raising five children, and my pap had plenty to share when it came to him working in the steel mills that put Pittsburgh on the map.

I remember spending countless nights sleeping over in their big, old house, watching Gram make homemade nut rolls, pierogis, and chicken noodle soup, and watching Pap tend his giant garden and fiddle with the antiques he collected and occupied most of the basement and attic.
I remember the warm, bright days that were unmistakably June - a month for celebrating Father’s Day, attending graduation parties, and going to Kennywood picnics. The amusement park always held a special place in my pap’s heart, as he and Gram spent many nights dancing under the old band shell and squishing together in old-fashioned photo booths for black and white pictures.
June was a month of sitting at picnic tables, eating barbecue and cake, splashing in Gram and Pap’s Koi pond, getting dirty playing in their yard, climbing trees and swinging on the swing set. It was a month for celebration, full of love, and full of life.

So as June circles by on the calendar again this year, I’ll try not to cry over their absence, but smile and laugh as I celebrate their beautiful lives.

Stacy is a 2003 graduate of West Mifflin Area High School and has completed two courses with The Institute of Children’s Literature. She writes novels for teenagers and adults, both of which can be found on Amazon. Stacy lives in Munhall with her husband and fur kid, and besides writing, enjoys reading, Penguins hockey, and traveling.

Submerging, a review by Rachael Bindas

Submerging, a small literary magazine based in Patterson, NY, intricately weaves short stories, poetry, and photography together into one seamless publication. The nostalgic black-and-white photographs perfectly complement the writing, enhanced by publication’s glossy cardstock.

The Summer 2018 issue is titled, “Where are we in the story.” The issue focuses on characters and speakers at various stages of their lives, and the personal introspection that comes with each stage of life. In “Jobs and Teeth” by Jude Vachon, the narrator reflects on how jobs can spoil like bad teeth: “Sometimes they have to come out, they’re rotten.” The reader gains the sense that the narrator teeters on the edge of a precipice, craving a dramatic change but not quite fulfilling that desire.

Threaded together by feelings of loneliness, the stories and poems are intermixed, rather than being separated by genre. The result is an experience of harmonious, uninterrupted reading and appreciation. Each story and poem shares in a collective sense of uncertainty. You know where your characters are in their individual stories, but you do not necessarily know where their stories may lead.

Rachael Bindas is a freelance writer and editor from Pittsburgh, PA. She focuses mainly on fiction, but still harbors a deep love for poetry. Her work has been featured in Moledro Magazine, Aeons, The Curious Element Magazine, and The Holiday Cafe.

Lucy's Italian Bakery

Lucy’s Italian Bakery is a quaint little bakery with giant store front windows. There are shelves, in the windows, filled with delicious traditional Italian pastries. There are rows of Panettone wrapped in cellophane with giant red bows tied around each one. Sfogliatella that looks so flakey and delicious. They are delicately placed on white rectangular platters. The Bombolone are stacked mile high on a cake platter with a light dusting of powder sugar.   Custard oozing down the sides of a few of these fluffy doughnuts.
The bakery storefront always creates pedestrian traffic on Hazelwood Avenue to come to a standstill. Everyone stops to look at the beautiful dessert displays. People start to drool if they look at the delicious desserts to long. The sweet aromas coming from the bakery can be smelled for miles.
Lucy, the owner of the bakery, is practically a town celebrity. She is a big boned Italian woman with thick black hair that she always wears in a victory roll. People describe her as classy and conservative but, don’t try to cross her because that would be a battle you would never win. There is the legendary story of Giuseppe Russo, the neighborhood boy who tried to rob the bakery at gun point. He failed miserably. Lucy had a rolling pin near the register and wacked him so hard over the head he saw stars. Giuseppe tried to get away, but he was so disoriented the cops were able to catch him on Gladstone Street which is a few blocks from the bakery. Lucy gladly pressed charges.
Lucy even banned the Ricci family from her bakery because they said her “pizzelles are too crispy.” Lucy started waving her hands and screaming “how are they to crispy? The pizzelles aren’t even burnt! Get out of here and don’t come back.” Within 24 hours she posted a picture of the Ricci family on the front door and wrote banned in big bold black letters.
This bakery is her life. She had lost her husband Norman during WWII. Norman was a tall lanky kind of man and everyone can remember him for his whimsical sense of humor. Norman was a Military Police Officer. He was guarding his post one night and the Germans ambushed his post. Norman was shot several times. Amazingly enough he did not die because of the gunshot wounds he died due to a bad infection. The doctors did what they could for him, but it was not enough. Lucy was devastated when she got the news, but she refused to sit around and mope. Six months after Norman’s death she opened Lucy’s bakery.
Lucy is very close with her family. When she told her family, she wanted to open an Italian bakery her father was too drunk to care, which was typical. He just mumbled something and continued to drink his wine. Her mother gives her a big hug and said in broken English, “I support you.” Nickolas and Joseph, her older protective brothers, volunteered to help to do most of the leg work. Such as finding the location, help make the renovations, and making sure no one tried to scam her. Just being typical protective older brothers.
Jenny, her younger sister, was hit by a trolley car a few years earlier and lost part of her hearing. She thought Lucy said she wanted to open a French Creperie.  Jenny jumped up in such excitement and said “Lu, I love crepes! How can I help?” Lucy looked at Jenny like she had ten heads and said in an irritated tone “what’s a matter with you? I said Italian Bakery not a French Creperie!” Everyone busts out laughing.
On December 14, 1942, Lucy’s Bakery had its grand opening just in time for the Christmas rush. Jenny does a great job handling the customers at the counter, despite her not being to fully hear the customers. Items are flying off the shelves. Lucy frantically tries to keep everything stocked. The cannoli sold out within the first hour of the store opening. No one was surprised that the cannoli’s sold out so quickly. Lucy used the recipe her great grandmother has passed down to the family for generations. The customers and passer-bys were raving how great everything tasted, looked, and smelled. The line was out the door and around the block. Lucy had hoped her bakery would be successful, after that first day, it looked as if her dreams would come true.
Jenny and Lucy were preparing to close the shop for the day. Joe came busting thru the doors carrying a giant jug of red wine. He said “let’s celebrate!” Lucy and Jenny locked the doors, kicked their shoes off, and started to drink right out of the jug. They looked exhausted, but not regretting their decision of starting this business and looking forward to the future success of the bakery.
Every Sunday the bakery was closed. Lucy attended mass with her family at St. Stephens Catholic Church. She always donated pastries to Father Falcone and the nuns. They were always grateful for the donation. After mass she would head back to Mama’s house for a Sunday spaghetti feast.

Natalie is the author of The Many Colors of Natalie, a book of poetry.  She holds an associates degree in Specialized Technology Le Cornon Bleu Pastry Arts and in her spare time is an artist and percussionist.

Wednesday, April 4, 2018

Excerpt from Black Moon: The Chronicles of Tucker Littlefield

Excerpt from Black Moon: The Chronicles of Tucker Littlefield

I had heard tale of it but had always considered it an open lie told by bald faced liars.  Few, if any, ever entered the outlands, fewer still lived to tell of it.  Never having seen it for myself, I was of the opinion that such a thing could never exist.

Water. . . water for as far as the eye could see forming a line that could be nothing short of the world's edge. . . a place where creation itself had stopped.  It churned endlessly as if it were trying to free itself of its own bulk.  It rose and fell with massive rows that marched one by one to smash against the bottom of the hill upon which we stood.  On that side the gentle slope we had climbed gave way to sharp clusters of rock outcroppings.  At the very bottom the rocks we had searched the night before lay under several feet of water, disappearing under each massive row that crashed upon it only to then race away.  The sound was tremendous.  Again and again the waves beat upon the shore, one after the other.

"Do you hear them, Brother?"  Bowen asked, turning a shoulder to peer over the edge.

I didn't—not at first, but as the water churned and roiled angrily below us.  Each in turn lifted itself up higher and higher to become a new massive wave, becoming a mad frothing white at its top. One after the other raced to crash upon the rocks washing closer and closer to where we stood.  Enormous amounts of water rose and fell with a deafening roar only to be replaced with another and another and another, seven in total, each more powerful than the one that preceded it.  For a brief moment, laying under the sound of the water that raced across the rocks. . . a voice. . . a deep, menacing, unintelligible voice.  It growled its anger, demanding the same thing over and over, punctuating its displeasure with the roar of more water and then the unthinkable.  It suddenly shifted, becoming calm, placid, more fluid by comparison.  Now the swells of  water appeared to be half their size and power.  Again I counted seven, each gently rushed to the rocks and in their parting a voice.  This time it was clear—a woman's voice.  It pleaded softly, sorrowfully, begging in heart wrenching tones.  There were no open, discernable words, just an overwhelming sense of loss that pulled at me.

"What are they saying?"  I asked, feeling the tension of this place.

"In my village, Brother, it is believed they cry for one who is lost to them," Bowen volunteered.

I don't know why but I looked to Grake for his explanation.

He looked to Bowen with his head bent and silently nodded his agreement.

"My people do not come to this place.  The water does not welcome the Norha," he said in little more than a whisper, turning away.

I stood for a moment, thinking about what they said and listening to the voices in the water.  Out where it appeared the world ended, the line of water where the sky came to rest, a massive storm rose, black and brooding.  Flashes of lightning jumped from one immense cloud to another illuminating them from inside.  Hundreds if not thousands of them had broken free, drifting overhead, heading for parts unknown.  Each a giant, dark purple, cheerless castle that shifted and undulated endlessly with a flat, black underside that held the threat of rain.

"What's on the other side?"  I asked.

"There is no other side.  Many of the Kindred have tried. . . several times.  No one who goes upon it ever comes home.  There is something in the water that preys upon good men."

I believed it, simply based upon its enormous size and the way it moved.  It churned with an appalling, endless hunger.  You could smell it in the air.

"Brother," Bowen called, pointing.  At the bottom of the hill heading our way was Pules and a good many of his kind numbering well over twenty, each armed with a club.

"Why are you here, Pules?"  I asked, fearing I already knew the answer.

"We have come for the spear," he returned stiffly.

"We've already talked about this.  You know it will only lock itself to the ground if I release it."

"True. . . as long as you live.  If I take it from your dying hand it will pass willingly to me and the Ogin will remain the law," he said, signaling the others.

"Go home, Pules, before you do something you'll regret," I warned.

"I will only regret going home empty handed," he said. At that instant the same pale blue energy enveloped his hands as that of Cura’s.   He stepped closer, readying himself for a fight.

"Then come for it," Bowen demanded, stepping in front of me, squaring his shoulders.  What surprised me more was Grake as he moved to stand next to Bowen.

"Come," Grake said menacingly, waving them closer as he moved further down the hill.

Several of Pules’ men suddenly thought better of it, stepping back a little.

Suddenly the energy ball between his hands doubled in size and with a quick gesture he threw it in our direction.  It exploded at our feet showering us with dirt and rock thrown high into the air.

Before I could react, Grake and Bowen charged them, diving into the middle of them with no self-regard.  It didn't take long before they too swung a club as well.  Even with that advantage, Pules began to throw energy ball after energy ball allowing his  men to push them back up the hill.

I pounded the spear to the ground expecting a clap of thunder but got nothing in return.  Panic filled me.  I repeated the effort several times before Pules and the others were on top of us.  Grake and Bowen all but stood over me in an effort to protect me until we had nowhere to go.  In short order we stood at the edge, Pules and the others in front of us and the deafening waves behind us, when the ground under our feet gave way and we tumbled to the water below.

I was beaten repeatedly by the falling bodies of Grake and Bowen as we hurdled to the bottom.  To my personal terror the spear got away from me, striking the water before we did.

I was bruised, beaten and disoriented.  To be honest I didn't think of Bowen or Grake at all, just the spear.  The water surged over us, throwing us repeatedly into the rocks and then suddenly withdrew, pulling with surprising power in an attempt to drag us into deeper water.

It was cold, salty, bitter to the taste, and it foamed madly.  It was as if it had fingers and felt as though it were pulling at me, grabbing me in an effort to hold me under the water.  I was certain, it wanted to drown me.  I dove repeatedly, searching the rocks for the spear when two of Pules’ men fell on top of me, forcing the air out of me.  It seemed to take forever for me to push my way to the surface, empty handed.  Over the roar of the water I could hear the screams for help from Pules’ men as they were washed away.  I was shocked at how fast they were pulled out into deeper water, screaming and floundering with every inch of it.  As I turned to look at them the water rose high above them, blotting out the sky before crashing down on them with what I can only describe as malicious intent, driving them below the surface never to be seen again.

My heart pounded wildly as the water threatened to add me to their fate.  It was as if it had taken on a life of its own, forcing me under time and time again.  At the moment my foot touched the spear, I heard Grake.  The Norha was being pulled into deeper water.  It was as if he were being held in the grip of a huge fist that repeatedly dragged him under water despite his best efforts to the contrary.  His expression spoke volumes. . . he was going to drown and he knew it.

I dove one last time for the spear and clutched it, knowing fully well that all of our lives depended on it.  As I pulled it from the water the head began to glow a bright blue and the water released me, surging sluggishly around me.

"Grab it," I screamed stretching out as far as I could reach.

Grake flailed wildly in an attempt to grasp the extended spear.  At the moment he flung his arm in its direction the water pulled him under.  He had disappeared from sight.  I was shaken to the core, not just by his disappearance but by the sudden dread of his absence.

For an instant Grake shot back to the surface, drawing a deep, panic-filled breath.  His eyes instantly locked with mine.

"Grab it," I howled over the din of water.  I tipped toed to the edge of the rocks doing everything I could to reach out to him as the water I stood in grew deeper, holding just at my chin.

The tip glowed brighter and brighter as he went under one last time. Only his hand remained visible and then it too sank beneath the water.

I plunged the spear wildly time and time again, hoping he would see the glow and reach for it.  At the moment I was ready to give up I felt a fierce tug on the other end and then another.  It was him. By the third tug he threatened to drag me off my perch and into the water alongside him.

The harder he pulled the more the spear resisted and we were in a stalemate.  To my relief, Bowen was suddenly there and grabbed the spear with me.  I had forgotten about him but was now thrilled for his help.  He held the spear, swimming its length to reach Grake.  Wrapping his arm around him, he pulled him closer to shore until he was able to fend for himself.

It took far longer than I would have liked but we eventually got out of the water, crawling back on solid ground.

Happily, Pules and the others were nowhere to be seen.  Now lying on my back on solid ground I could hear the labored breathing of Grake and Bowen mix with mine.  I watched the dark, massive clouds that drifted overhead and wondered where they were going. . . I wondered if all the clouds in the world had started from here. . . and then I heard it again.  The voices from the water called to me.  I thought I heard it call my name, beckoning me, begging me, pleading for my return to come back to the water.

"Well, that was fun.  Let's not do that again," I quipped, trying to put it out of my mind.

"You are wise in saying so, Shalic," Grake choked between ragged breaths.

"I think we need to find Pules and settle this.  All in favor?"  I asked, weakly raising my hand.

Without a word the others did the same.

"Good, now give me a minute."

Tegon Maus was raised pretty much the same as everyone else... devoted mother, strict father and all the imaginary friends I could conjure.
      The first thing I can remember writing was for my wife. For the life of me I can't remember what it was about... something about dust bunnies under the bed and monsters in my closet. It must have been pretty good because she married me shortly after that. I spent a good number of years chasing other dreams before I got back to writing.
      It wasn't a deliberate conscious thought it was more of a stepping stone. It was the eighties, my wife and I had joined a dream interpret group and we were encouraged to write down our dreams as they occurred. "Be as detailed as you can," we were told.
      I was thrilled. If there is one thing I enjoy it's making people believe me and I like to exaggerate. Not a big exaggeration or an outright lie mine you, just a little step out of sync, just enough so you couldn't be sure if it were true or not. When I write, I always write with the effort of "it could happen" very much in mind and nothing, I guarantee you, nothing, makes me happier.
http://www.tirpub.com/tmaus

Monday, October 2, 2017

Musings for Moms: Driving - Fall 2017

Is it just me or have the people on the road started driving a whole
lot worse?  People have no qualms about crossing the line while they are behind the wheel nowadays.  I am not saying it’s primarily men or women, or new drivers versus experienced ones—as a whole, there are a lot of people that are on the road that shouldn’t be.

And the popularity of cell phones and the social media aspect of it all makes people that much more dangerous behind the wheel.  When I first started driving 25 years ago, I had a cell phone but you paid per minute used (it was primarily for emergencies) and there was definitely nothing ‘smart’ about it.

Now we have evolved into a society that cannot put their phones down long enough to make sure we don’t run a stop sign or red light.  There are cars that can get wifi because we can’t go on the road without being connected.

According to a Teen Driving Statistics website in 2012, 2,823 teens between the ages of 13 and 19 died in motor vehicle crashes.  48% of those crashes were single-vehicle accidents.  Compare that to 1975 statistics and the number increased by 68%.

Driver error seems to be a big issue when it comes to accidents – but what does that mean?  Is it because they took their eyes off the road a split second too long, over-corrected their steering wheels, zoning out?

Drinking and social media were the primary blames for a fatal accident over the summer that took the lives of several younger women.  There was another accident on the parkway where a woman went the wrong way on an on-ramp and hit a family taking their newborn baby home from the hospital.  The baby will need ongoing surgeries.

This summer while the family and I were coming home from the beach, there was a very large car carrier tractor trailer loaded with new cars – going way too fast – that didn’t slow down enough for the curve in the interstate and almost lost his load.  Thankfully he was able to pull his shit together and not flip – because that would have caused a chain reaction of accidents.

Bottom line, if you go out and have a few drinks, call a taxi or Uber. Texting or social media apps – don’t do it while driving.

Artwork - Fall 2017


Artists statement
Ignacio Lopez was born and raised in Pittsburgh where he graduated from the University of Pittsburgh with a degree in Studio Arts and English Writing. He is currently working on screen printing and pencil works.

Artist statement

 I’ve started to draw the city and the unique scenes it offers. As a hyper-realistic artist, there is plenty of detail and beauty to be found in this city which I plan on picking like a flower and showingto my audience. To me East Liberty is an example of the hidden scenic gems the city holds.

A Sport for the Uncoordinated - Fall 2017

Anyone who knows me will readily tell you that I am the furthest thing from athletic or coordinated that a person can be.

So when my husband spontaneously purchased kayaks last fall for our anniversary, I was hesitant to believe that the money he spent would be worth it.

I had kayaked a few times before – once in the sound side of the Outer Banks when I was about twelve or thirteen, and again several years ago at the North Park Boat House right before my husband and I got married. While I love to swim, I had an unreasonable fear of falling into the water on those first couple of trips, and was left with sore shoulders and a familiar feeling of athletic inadequacy after the short tours were over.

But I have been pleased to learn that over the last year, kayaking could easily become one of the only athletic activities my uncoordinated self may actually enjoy.

After the purchase of the kayaks, we were eager to get them into the water ASAP. Living close to The Waterfront in Homestead, we had heard of Duck Hollow and how it played host to fisherman, canoers, and kayakers. So it was a no-brainer to take the short fifteen minute drive, maneuver through the short span of woods, and carry the kayaks down to the riverfront.

Unfortunately, that was the easy part. Once in the water, the current made its presence known immediately. The initial part of the trip wasn’t very strenuous, but by the time we were ready to turn back against the current, I realized I was way in over my head. It had been years since I’d been in a kayak, and although I have a relatively regular routine of lifting hand weights at home while I watch my guilty pleasures on TV, my otherwise unused muscles were not prepared to propel my kayak against the Monongahela. As I watched my much-stronger and faster husband paddle seemingly effortlessly ahead of me, I became convinced that I was not moving at all. The tree line on either side of me looked the same after twenty minutes, and the giant barge gliding through the water thirty yards away from me was intimidating, its giant body causing more wake for me to battle against.
Somehow I eventually made it back to our launch spot. I was exhausted and recovering from a panic attack, but I didn’t want my husband to regret spending money on our new kayaks. Our first two adventures took place in the river, and I had to admit that the expeditions were entirely too strenuous and borderline scary for a panicky, weak-armed person like myself.

Since the river had proved to be more of a battle than anything else, we decided to head to North Park for our next adventure.

As soon as my paddle hit the water, I knew this was going to be better than fighting the mighty Mon.
Here, I could paddle at my leisure with as much or as little effort as I wanted. I could take breaks, letting the gentle wind slowly push me across the lake or spin me around for an alternate view of the park itself. I felt comfortable enough to remove my lifejacket, and even managed a few laughs as I accidently-on-purpose plowed my kayak into my husband’s. Not only was the water calmer and the actual experience more enjoyable and relaxing, but the launch from the sandy shore was easier and there were plenty of people around to assist in the unlikely event of an emergency.

Our most recent expedition found us at Lake Arthur in Moraine State Park. Years ago, we had taken a pontoon boat out on the lake, but this was our first time using the kayaks. Like at North Park, our launch from the sandy shores was smooth and easy, and I actually looked forward to spending the next hour paddling around the lake.

It was a gorgeous July day – blue skies, puffy white clouds, not too hot, not too cold. Wind gusted in every direction, setting the sailboats and kite-boarders for a thrill. Fishing boats and pontoon boats dotted the landscape, and couples walked along the shore with their dogs and kids.

After only a couple of minutes, I realized that the normally calm lake was actually quite choppy. The combination of the wind and the intersecting wake from all the boats was creating small waves that were large enough to crest over the sides of my coral colored kayak. I laughed when the first couple poured in over the sides, soaking my gym pants and tank top, and dug in deep with my paddle while my husband and I rowed to the shade of a bridge in the distance. By the time we got there, the two of us were pretty well-soaked. We were laughing and having fun, and while the choppy water was still no big deal in comparison to the strong current of the Mon, it was clear that this was not going to be the relaxing day on the lake like the ones we’d had at North Park.

Our journey back to the shore was the same as our journey out – our kayaks bucked and dipped, waves smacked us on our backs and on our sides, and our clothes and seats were wetter than they’d ever been on any other adventure. By the time we pulled back onto the soft sands of the grassy beach, we were laughing hysterically and dripping wet. It was at that moment that we realized we had forgotten towels.

I think it’s safe to say that we’ve found our groove as new kayakers. My husband is insistent that he wants to kayak someday to The Point, but I doubt my arms will ever be strong enough to carry us that far. In the meantime, we plan on trying out Keystone Lake and Twin Lakes Park for our next outings, and may even haul our little boats to the Outer Banks for our vacation in September.
So despite the fact that I can barely chew gum and walk at the same time, and certainly can’t call myself coordinated enough for a sport like softball or volleyball, I think kayaking may be a perfect fit for me.

Stacy is a 2003 graduate of West Mifflin Area High School and has completed two courses with The Institute of Children’s Literature. She writes novels for teenagers and adults, both of which can be found on Amazon. Stacy lives in Munhall with her husband and fur kid, and besides writing, enjoys reading, Penguins hockey, and traveling. 

Liberace in Lawrenceville - Fall 2017

It was the day that Kennedy died, and Liberace was crying all the way
to the Holiday House—sequined star, at forty-four the fair-haired boy
adored by unloved mothers and daughters. There was no show: respect
for the dead President (none for that other Lee, felled by a glistening Ruby).

Liberace worked a shuttered dressing room, cleaning sparkling costumes
with Carbona, known to TV repairmen and huffers—fire-resistant and sweet
as antifreeze. He was used to the fumes, like the buzz of a crowd. Next night,
standing room only for “Birth of the Blues” on twinkling ivories. A dizzy Lee

cut the concert short, collapsing backstage in a slick of his own vomit. They rushed
him to St. Francis. He was there anyway, his failing kidneys fluttering like birds
in the saint’s hand. While doctors shook their heads, sad metronomes, he ordered breakfast at Tiffany’s—the glitter that never fades—for his family and friends.

He was dying. But in that red brick house of pain, he felt his childhood Catholic
faith saving him. A gliding nun in white prayed to St. Anthony for something lost:
his innocence, perhaps. She whispered his boyish name, Walter. No one ever
knew who she was. The stained crosses in nearby St. Mary’s Cemetery began

cheering for him, in the oily rain of Extreme Unction. O Pittsburgh of Miracles.
O City of Machines. O artificial kidney, alien angel huge as a refrigerator,
doing the magic trick. An engineer named Mateer irrigated the star in crude dialysis.
Mid-December, a ghostly Lee waved the Sisters goodbye from his Hollywood car.

Twenty years later, he played Heinz Hall, buoyed by a bevy of hair-sprayed heads, mauve and cerulean, like the clouds of Catholic Heaven. Showered praise and cash
on St. Francis Hospital, whose remodeled Lawrenceville lobby would bear his name
and his gleaming portrait, that all-American-by-way-of-Poland-and-Italy smile.

Gone today. In the darkening days of St. Francis and Liberace’s reputation,
the nuns would move his portrait to an obscure aisle. Where is he now—
buried in rubble, or rising like Las Vegas in the rainbow grid of pick-up sticks
that fronts Pittsburgh’s fresh Children’s Hospital, shining gaily in his joy?

Angele Ellis’s latest collection is Under the Kaufmann’s Clock: Fiction, Poems, and Photographs of Pittsburgh, with photos by Rebecca Clever (Six Gallery Press). The author of four books, Angele’s work also has appeared in sixty publications and thirteen anthologies, including the forthcoming Unconditional Surrender (Low Ghost Press), and Nasty Woman & Bad Hombre (Lascaux Editions).

We

We nearly missed each other.
We bent down to pick up the silver coins scattered on the lawn.
We drank bottles of seawater.
We waited for the sun to heal the wound by itself.
We were tired of knives.
Our bouquets remained on a bench made of gray stone.
We graduated and reincarnated.
Our hearts were torn into pieces of the Sahara.
We read fire.
We dug the grave and whipped tranquility.
We, too far, too close.
We stood at the opposite ends of a rainy alley, showing indifference.

We embezzle others' kindness.
We, facing such lonliness, become vulnerable as a collapsing dam.



Meng Qi'Ang is currently a student majoring in English and philosophy at the University of Pittsburgh. This poem was written during his study abroad period when he enjoyed being in a total isolation in Cambridge, England.

Sophia Hamilton - Interview - Fall 2017

Sophia Hamilton Interview

Sophia Hamilton is a contemporary romance author from Venice, California. Her debut novel, “The Stoplight”, is available now as paperback on Amazon, and as an e-book on Kindle, Nook, and Kobo.

1. “The Stoplight” is your debut novel. How did you begin writing?

I have always enjoyed storytelling through the written word.  I have always found it easy to write papers and stories in school. I like being creative – writing always allows me to do that.

2. “The Stoplight” follows Dan through some pretty crazy circumstances. Where did you get the idea to write “The Stoplight”?

A friend of mine was telling me about this place that she goes to regularly to eat and I got the idea for my main character to run a restaurant.  The characters are in no way a reflection of the place she goes, other than it being family owned.

3. Why did you choose to self-publish your book rather than go through a publishing house? Do you have any advice to give other writers about the self-publishing process?

I went back and forth with this quite a bit actually.  I would have rather gone through a publishing house because they promote the books – it’s hard to promote yourself when you are new to the scene.  But I also didn’t want them to totally change my book into something it isn’t.  I have also seen authors who start out with the indie route and then get attached with a pub house and have conflicts because they don’t have the creative freedoms they once had anymore.  I would rather have that freedom and build my fan base.
4. Do you have plans for any future novels?

I do.  There is potential in the book for it to be at least a trilogy.  I have a great idea for the next book and have literally started putting pencil to paper for it.

5. What advice do you have for other writers seeking to get their start in publishing?

Follow your dreams.  If you love what you have written – and it is of good quality – then go for it.  Don’t let someone tell you that you aren’t good enough.

6. Do you have anything else you would like to add?

It’s not always easy – but that doesn’t mean not to follow your dreams.  Be true to yourself and there is nothing to worry about.

Contact Sophia on Facebook at Sophia Hamilton, on Twitter at @sophiah_author, by email at sophiahamilton618@gmail.com, or on her website at https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B075ZZZQFQ and https://www.sophiahamiltonauthor.blogspot.com.

Rachael Bindas is a freelance writer and editor from Pittsburgh, PA. She focuses mainly on fiction, but still harbors a deep love for poetry. Her work has been featured in Moledro Magazine, Aeons, The Curious Element Magazine, and The Holiday Cafe.